Why I don't like Biloxi.

Do you know why I don't like Biloxi? Let me tell you. I have a history here that is not one for which I am proud. Ten years ago, while attending Tech School, I was very indulgent in the consumption of alcohol (it was the begining of my life as an alcoholic). Additionally, during subsequent visits, I was sexually promiscuous; both are a past for which I am extremely ashamed (NOTE: important to mention is that I know I have God's forgiveness as I have also forgiven myself). But, most frustrating, is the fact that this is my first visit here since becoming a Christian and my presence here is now a struggle with temptation. Everday here, has been one mental/spiritual struggle after another where I find myself wanting to have a beer, or even go to find female companionship. I am grateful, however, to God that he has kept me ever vigilant and convicted to remain in Him and not given in to my temptations. I am grateful to know that I have family and friends who keep me in prayer, as I them. Thank you so very much!!!

During this mornings church service the Chaplain mentioned how God protects us through our struggles - he allows it [our struggles]. How often do we see a struggle ahead and pray for God to keep us from it? All too often. The Chaplain used Shadrach, Mesach, and Abednego for illustration - as well as Daniel, and others. I need to be ever constant in my mind and understand that I have to endure hardship and know (now matter what the struggle) that I do have God's promise to see me through.

Lastly, Today was a diferrent experience for me at church. I was out of my element - out of familiarity and comfort. I almost became sad because I didn't have my family of friends from Misawa with me to be in worship. It almost distracted me to the point where I could have become so consumed with myself that I could have easily robbed God of his due worship.

(MANY, MANY things going through my minds lately... sorry for the unstructured ramblings).