Even a fool is thought wise...

Answers to Questions (from Aunt RM)

2009-12-01T17:39:00.003-05:00

Aunt RM,

I'm glad you enjoyed what I had to share. Yeah, I'm sorry about the jargon, but as I had mentioned it was a letter originally written to report back to my home unit back in Virginia. Honestly, I thought it was a good idea to share with everyone (give a sneak peak) how we share words on-the-job. Even after watering it down some, I realize that it that it sill was a little to specialized. None-the-less, I'm glad I have been able to share it with all of you. :0)

Let's see, to answer your questions. I am able to take pictures of somethings, but rather cautiously; other things not quite so. It all depends on who or what is involved. If the contents of a picture can pose a potential security risk to our personnel and our operations, then I wouldn't even dare take a picture. Don't get me wrong, I am taking pictures of various things and I'm looking forward to sharing them in the future.

The climate and elevation here in Afghanistan is very similar to that of Denver, Colorado. The high elevation here has taken a toll on me - that couple with a very fine dust in the air that mimics a very bad pollution day in LA - and so I find myself struggling to breath at times (though, two and a half weeks in country, I'm finding myself acclimating).

The food is palatable, and even good at times. We are on a US compound, that has contracted out to a company from back in the States that provides all our meals. We have four meal services each day: breakfast, lunch, dinner, and mid-night chow. There's always a variety of food to eat. Traditional military chow hall style, you'll always have a choice of two food style lines: main and fast. Main line always provides main-course entrees; fast (I'm sure you've guessed), always has a selection of fast-foods. Main entrees range from lasagne, fish, pork chops, to grilled steaks on Sundays (sides always included). Fast foods range from burgers, chicken tenders, to mini pizzas. Yesterday, we even had tamales - surprisingly, they were delicious (not chile, though). Also, there's always a salad bar, fruits, desserts, and an abundance of drinks.

As for consuming thoughts, hmm? I don't like not being able to perform greater than 'par', therefore I find that I'm always digging into things. I find that I spend a good deal of time considering my overall comprehension of the job and my overall role in our mission. Aside from that, when I'm not sleeping, I spend whatever free moments in daily devotion, reading books on spiritual maturation, and even studying for next years promotion tests.

Well, I hope you enjoy these few lines. Answering your questions has motivated me to start using my blog site again! As I get questions and even journal my activities here, I will make posts for the whole family to enjoy. Aunt RM, thank you for your support and thank you for the prayers - they mean a lot to me!

God bless!
Michael.

A Grief Observed

2009-11-28T17:51:00.003-05:00

I took some time out during my shift to finally read C.S. Lewis' 'A Grief Observed' - it was a good read! I originally read it to see how I could understand ones grief after the lost of a wife, especially how a staunch Christian man like Lewis coped with (and managed to document) his grief. I had hope to gain insight or a perspective on grieving and the role ones faith in God plays throughout. Though it had little to do with actual grieving and more on Christian living, in the fourth chapter C.S. Lewis made a statement that profoundly spoke to my heart. He stated: "Imagesof the Holy easily become holy images - sacrosanct. My Idea of God is not a divine idea. It has to be shattered time after time. He shatters it Himself. He is the great Iconoclast." The statement just spoke volumes on faith in GOD alone! How often when take images and thoughts on God and make them sacred, in and of themselves. How easily we can ensare ourselves into trusting and believing in some icon and not God (and his Word) directly. How easily we can pervert our own faith but not remaining ground upon God alone... I'm still trying to digest/synthesis this statement and its convicting and limitless reach.

A Response to Aunt NPs Letter

2009-11-06T08:59:00.001-05:00

Wow! I am speechless, yet, truly blessed with your letter - thank you Auntie Nyomium (and Eddie, too)! The privilege is mine and I am very proud to hail from a family such as ours. We are not perfect, nor are we desolate - we are rich in family and abundant in the grace of God. All that I am, is because of Him: it is His work affected directly into my life and from and through you, to me. What I have I give compassionately.

The Apostle Paul wrote in his second epistle to the Corinthians (1:3-4): "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God." This is my motivation - this accounts for my behavior.

Family, don't be anxious and distressed about the time God has ordained for me in Afghanistan. It wasn't until last week this information was made known and, without a doubt, a reason that only God knows. I can say for certain it is His will and I'm not asking to change it either. I want to be a man that follows through with God's perfect will and not his permissible will. Consider Lot and all his folly because he was reluctant to heed God's will (chiefly, Gen 19). It was only through God's permissible will that Lot, in his reluctance, was saved. Had the Apostle Peter not wrote it, we never would have known that Lot was a righteous man (2 Pet 2:7). But had Lot followed through with God's perfect will, I don't believe that he would have endured such a depraved life and, perhaps, God would have had more to say about the man.

With this deployment, I take comfort in two things: 1.) God continues to re-iterate His words to me, "I have a work for you"; and, 2.) Psalm 91 (please read and pray it). Whether you believe it or not, all this is of God's doing and I accept it. Let not one of us be troubled. Remember: "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus" Philippians 4:6-7.

As always, thank you (everyone) for your continued support through prayer. You - all of you - are my blessing!

In Jesus' love,

Michael

Independence Day Celebration

2008-07-05T11:00:00.005-04:00

I hope that everyone had a great Independence Day celebration. I had found out a couple weeks back that from my balcony I should have an excellent view of the fireworks show, from out of Fort Monroe (Ft. Monroe is directly across the water from me). Not only was there an excellent view of the of the Ft. Monroe show, but also very visible were the displays at Virginia Beach and Norfolk! HOWEVER, the awesome firework shows were greatly amplified in grandeur as they were illuminated by the relentless lightening storms just south of the Hampton Roads area. (click images to enlarge)

The 360 Degree Leader

2008-06-29T21:02:00.004-04:00

Currently going through John C. Maxwell's "The 360 Degree Leader." - my favorite quote:

"One of the nice things about being

imperfect is the joy that it brings to others!"

Quote of the Day

2008-06-15T13:30:00.001-04:00

Currently reading "Confessions of a Good Christian Guy: The Secrets Men keep and the Grace that Saves Them" by Tom Davis and Tammy Maltby - I'm a quarter of the way through and it has proven to be a great read, so far. In the current chapter they share a quote from Ravi Zacharias (another of my favorite theologians), of which I, now, share with you:

"An essential principle in a philosophy of pleasure arise here: all pleasure must be bought at a price. The difference between illegitimate and legitimate pleasure is this: For legitimate pleasure, the price is paid before it is enjoyed. For illegitimate pleasure, the price is paid after it is enjoyed. Turning aside from instant gratification is one of the most difficult things to do. But this is where the battle is often won or lost.

The strength of our will-and this is crucial-surrendered either to God or ourselves-reveals the character we possess, and the strength of our will determines when the price is paid. It is the submission of our will to God that protects us from illicit pleasure, so that we may fully enjoy those which are legitimate. When that distinction is made and honored, life becomes a delight."

Sorry, did not intend to mislead anyone.

2008-05-12T22:11:00.001-04:00

DISCLAIMER: The song “Down in a Hole” was intentionally taken from its original context and applied to a spiritual life of struggle - a practice commonly frowned upon. Under no circumstance would I ever use this as a technique to witness to unbelievers or teach doctrine. However, this Blog entry (as with many of my others) was written to share the thought process of my mind; my objective approach to things of this life filtered through scripture; scrutinizing each and every influence. Additionally, this particular piece does not reflect a complete exposition of thought on the matter.

A couple of weeks ago I changed up my Myspace profile and added the song “Down in a Hole,” by Alice in Chains (heretofore, AIC). To clear the air, I did not intend to have the music reflect an internal or an emotional status. My song and word choice were motivated out of philosophical and theological scrutiny; hence my profile headline change: “It's funny how a bit of 'nostalgia' can be enjoyable, but if not kept-in-check, unpleasant.” Admittedly, (in my ignorance) I understand how someone might issue a concern-of-welfare based on my song and word choice. Believe you, me, I am doing well.

Perhaps, to further provide insight into my thought (of that particular moment in time), I should elaborate. I don’t recall why, or how, I stumbled upon AIC’s music that day. Honestly, I haven’t listened AIC in quite sometime; however, I do know when I recall memories from any given period of my life, my mind floods with the music with which I was associated. AIC reflects a period that spans from my sophomore year of high school, until about the time I enlisted in the Air Force (1996). The song, “Down in a Hole,” specifically, reminds me of my first year after high school. Like many at that time of their lives, I was on top of the world. High School was over; my plans to develop my career had just begun and, well, I thought everything was great! Of course, none of this is why I’m writing right now – I digress!

Back to “Down in a Hole.” Over the years, there was much speculation about the true meaning behind this particular song. The skinny: Jerry Cantrell, guitarist for AIC, penned the song as a lament over a self-inflicted torment for his unfeigned love for Courtney Clarke, the then love of his life. Popularly, however, many thought that front-man, Layne Staley, wrote this song about a struggle with drug addiction – one that would later claim his life.

On the particular day I chose to add this song to my profile, I had spent quite some time dissecting the lyrics. I’m prone to do that nowadays, juxtaposed to my youth, when I was mostly concerned with the sound-style of a band. As I examined the lyrics, I was totally enamored at how artistically the lyrics where poised against the music; a beautiful composition. Despite the ingenuity, the lyrics are disturbingly profound. Read for yourself:

Bury Me Softly In This Womb
I Give This Part Of Me For You
Sand Rains Down And Here I Sit
Holding Rare FlowersIn A Tomb.....
In Bloom

Down In A Hole And I Don't Know
If I Can Be Saved
See My Heart
I Decorate ItLike A Grave
You Don't Understand
Who TheyThought I Was
Supposed To Be
Look At Me Now
A ManWho Won't Let Himself Be

Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul
Down In A Hole, Losin' Control
I'd Like To Fly
But My Wings Have Been So Denied

Down In A Hole And They've Put All
The Stones In Their Place
I've Eaten The Sun So My Tongue
Has Been Burned Of The Taste
I Have Been GuiltyOf Kicking Myself In The Teeth
I Will Speak No More
Of My Feelings Beneath

Oh I Want To Be Inside Of You
Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul
Down In A Hole, Feelin' So Small
Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul
Down In A Hole, Out Of Control

I'd Like To Fly
But My Wings Have Been So Denied

As I researched a few things on-line, I ran across a website where one fan commented as such:

“In my opinion, this is a song about a man so saddled by depression, he can't think of anywhere to go, anyone to talk to or anything to save himself. “See my heart, I decorate it like a grave." - He can't even express his anger or sadness, his only emotion is that of loss and sadness. "You don't understand who they thought I was supposed to be." - He never imagined himself being in this state, where he questions very existence. "Down in a hole, feeling so small..." Depression can make someone feel so worthless to the point of non-existence. "Down in a hole, losing my soul..." - Depression has removed everything from his humanity, from his inability to express himself, to his all-encompassing feeling of helplessness. “I'd like to fly, but my wings have been so denied..." - He can remember when life was so promising, with unlimited potential...but he's been dragged down by depression. "I have been guilty of kicking myself in the teeth..." - the depression has gripped him so tightly that he's mentally torn himself apart, second guessing everything he does, everything he thinks, everything he feels. "I will speak no more of my feelings beneath..." - again, with the feeling that even expressing his sadness is useless.” - Vincent, Braintree, MA

From a temporal perspective on life, I agree with most of his conclusions. Theologically, the question looms: how many of us feel that way about our faith, the doctrines we treasure, and the lives we live? Intentionally taking the song from its original context and applying it to ones spiritual life (a practice some frown upon), I don’t know of any songs from that era that could have better captured our anguish. I am speaking in generalizations, so please don’t assume I am making a declaration of experience for all; that is hardly the case. Arguably, most converts will endure a period of their new lives just as the song “Down in a Hole” personifies. At the point of vocalization, a convert usually feels a temporary exhilaration and a relief of all burdens. Why shouldn’t they, as they’ve entered into a new life? But, are they not still embedded in the same routines, affiliations, and creature comforts? Logically, if left alone and unguided that convert will soon find a mind filled with the same, if not similar, laments and agony stated in AICs “Down in a Hole.”

“I Give This Part Of Me For You…”
How many times do we think, ‘Lord, not wholly yours, just a part – I still want my own life.’

“Down In A Hole, Losin' My Soul…
Down In A Hole, Losin' Control…
Down In A Hole And I Don't Know If I Can Be Saved…”
Often in our helplessness and limited understanding of forgiveness and God’s omnipotence, we pigeon-hole ourselves to the point where we cannot achieve a sufficient amount of penitence… to the point where we void out our salvation – as if either of those are within our ability.

“See My Heart, I Decorate it like a Grave…”
You know if someone would have taught me from the beginning the depravity, sickness and deceit of the heart… so few less would have been my anguish.

“You Don't Understand Who They Thought I Was Supposed To Be…”
Ah, legacy. How many get caught up on believing that they must carry on a family tradition and re-enforce a legacy for generations to come (that we have to be a preacher like Dad and Grand-dad)? How many believe that we need to be a Greg Laurie, Billy Graham, like the apostles, prophets, and priests? How many believe to not be, means ‘failure’?

“I'd Like To Fly But My Wings Have Been So Denied…”
I believe the comment by AIC fan, Vincent, said it best: “He can remember when life was so promising, with unlimited potential...but he's been dragged down by depression.”

“Down In A Hole And They've Put All The Stones In Their Place…”
WHEN YOU’RE DOWN, YOU’RE DOWN and everyone (in your mind, that is) is ready to cast the stones.

“Oh I Want To Be Inside Of You
I'd Like To Fly
But My Wings Have Been So Denied”
The turmoil within our own hearts, again, we know of the unlimited potential found in a spiritual rebirth. We know what glory lies ahead and how, if only, we could bask in that glory of the Lord.

Empirically, through personal and shared testimony, mature Christians understand my prior use of the terms ‘vocalization’ and ‘temporary.’ We understand that true conversion does not [necessarily] coincide at the moment of vocalization, but rather at the time of spiritual alteration. With the following verses, I believe the dynamic translation out of the NLT reads best for comprehension and draws the following illustration of conversion as such:

“For you are not a true Jew just because you were born of Jewish parents or because you have gone through the ceremony of circumcision. No, a true Jew is one whose heart is right with God. And true circumcision is not merely obeying the letter of the law; rather, it is a change of heart produced by God’s Spirit. And a person with a changed heart seeks praise from God, not from people.” (Romans 2:28-29)

TO BE CONTINUED…

Cheeserolls???? - Eat your heart out!

2008-05-01T19:30:00.000-04:00

Feast on this:

That's right... japanese yakisoba! Tomorrow afternoon, we're closing down the shop to celebrate "Dos de Mayo" - it's our excuse to have a fun day at the park with potluck dining and sports, among other things. I was pretty stoked to finally find a store here that specializes in asain foods; thus I was able to buy the right type of sauce to make a huge batch of yakisoba!

Cheese Rolls ain't got a thing on my yakisoba!

(for those who don't about cheese rolls, it's a restaurant in Misawa that's popular with many Americans - I was never too fond of it)

Good morning!

2008-04-19T13:00:00.001-04:00

Man, am I well rested! This week was rather challenging mentally and called for a great deal of time management. Of course, by weeks end, I was exhausted. Last night, after I ate dinner, I did nothing - by choice. As a matter of fact, I fell asleep somewhere around 7pm, woke up lying on my couch around 7:30pm, and went straight to my bed. Bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, I awoke this morning at 6am! It's very rare that I do such things (sleeping more than eight hours), but when it happens it's very necessary. I can say that physically I've been slightly more active this week as I've starting running 5K's and sprinting 400meters (outside and not on a treadmill). I've always been okay on long distances and have sufficient endurance; it's the sprinting that always kills me. I accepted long ago, that my body frame and foot type is not meant for speed - no matter how much I train and what type of running shoes I use to compensate.

Anyhoo... I digress. Shortly after I woke up, I went to the kitchen and made some coffee, poured my cup and went out onto my balcony; it's beautful outside! I thought of my Mom-Olivia (grandma). When she would visit us in California, she always enjoyed her first cup of coffee sitting outside, enjoying the sun and the scenery. I've always enjoyed that about her and and have taken to the same. The cool thing is I can now write her an email and tell her about it! (Aunt Ruth hooked her up with an email account).

Crisp, spring morning - birds chirping, crashing of waves on the Chesapeake side

Chesapeake in the background, Mill Creek Landing up front

Mill Creek Landing, Fort Monroe and the historic Chamberlin Hotel in the background

LEAVE ME ALONE!!!

2008-04-02T03:00:00.000-04:00

It's ON!

Every Tuesday night, between 9 and 10PM (EST),

DON'T YOU DARE BOTHER ME!!!!

Hell's Kitchen is priority.

In need of a whetstone

2008-03-22T18:30:00.001-04:00

Seeping through the holes of my mind, my affinity for theological and philosophical discussion departs. Not because of willful neglect, but because I've yet to encounter others with comparable and complementary inclinations and faculties.

As the butcher wields the knife to a whetstone, so must I my mind against your intellect.
An arrogant statement, yes, but a truthful one at that.

12 Years Completed

2008-03-06T03:00:00.002-05:00

Tonight marks the end of twelve years of service with the Air Force... I would never have guessed that (at 32 years of age) I would be here - physically in Virginia, still in the Air Force, let alone a Christian!

Tonight at church we had our monthly communion service; it was convicting, cleansing, confirming. I will never deny what the Lord has done in my life, what's He's brought me through, what He's taking me through, and where He'll take me next.

I have wondered far too long why God has brought me to Virginia - especially, since there weren't any logical indicators pointing toward my assignment here. I've simply resigned (peacefully) to the thought: a reason my not be revealed to me because I am a control freak. I plan everything thing out to the last detail - I have to know! To my dismay, I plan so intently that I forget to rely on God and at times forget to seek His guidance - this, I believe, is my first lesson as to why I am here. God, if he so chooses, may only reveal His intentions a portion at a time - He may not even do as much. Everything I've experienced here, tells me that... I am supposed to be here and I've yet to experience otherwise. The point is, I must continue to seek Him (in every facet).

A song we sang during service included the following, appropriate lyrics:
"I owe You my life and I will worship You forever; I owe You my life and I will live to bring You praise"

Call me simplistic, call me naive, immature, etc., - I don't care - but I can sum up my first 12 years with the Air Force and say that I finally see the profundity of relying on God. Trust me, if your into philosophical thought as I, than you'll understand my synthesis and amazement.

Conversations with God

2008-01-20T18:30:00.000-05:00

I can't say that I didn't start watching the movie "Conversations with God" with much skepticism - and rightfully so. I have not, nor do I, plan on reading the book(s) as the movie adaptation was sufficient.

The movie was definitely heart stirring and I could see why the message is so captivating for those who are "soul-searching" and looking for ways to reconcile their world-view with that of God's; however, the "god" of Neale Donald Walsch as represented in this movie is clearly not the God of the bible. Walsch’s teachings are laced with monism (all is one and one is all), pantheism (all is God and God is all), and experience over words (doctrines).

I fear [for those not well rooted in the Gospel] the stealthy tactics of creative/deceptive men. The Bible warns that “false christs and false prophets” would arise, bringing deceptive signs and wonders to verify their false teachings (Matthew 24:24).

BARF!

2008-01-19T03:50:00.000-05:00

BARF! That's what I wanted to do immediately following 84 wasted-minutes-of-my-life, watching Cloverfield.

Teeth-chattering... YES, I'm cold!

2008-01-16T01:30:00.000-05:00

Many might consider me the black-sheep of my family in many ways. Let me just focus on one of those ways, leaving the others for another time.

Born in New Mexico, raised in SoCal, you'd think that I prefer the US south-western, hot, arid-land - never so true! Even before my three years in Alaska, I've always preferred the colder climates. I love snow... I love winter... I love winter sports/recreation... but (!) that doesn't mean I don't get cold and miserable.

Apparently, this is an unusual winter (temperature-wise). It's been anything from mild to chilly. Last week, it was pretty warm hitting the low 70s in the afternoon and high 50s at night. This week, holy-moley! I left my apartment this morning, discovering an iced-over, truck windshield at a balmy 31degrees! Right now (8pm) it's about 30degrees, and I can expect to wake-up to a freezing 24!

You know... back in the day (in AK), 24degrees was a hot winter day - one where all the Alaskans would drop their jackets and sport a t-shirt and a pair flip-flops!!! I used to do the same... you know why... 'cause it wasn't a chilly 20degrees-below-zero!
(with that in mind... man I've become a wimp!)

Airman's Creed

2008-01-10T01:30:00.000-05:00

So I guess knowing the Airman's Creed has its perks... like being asked by Chief - whose intent was (initially to) challenge us into start learning it - who could recite the following line once he had given a line from the Creed... I was able to recite the whole creed (needing only two lead-in words) and was rewarded with the Chief's front row parking slot for a week.

I am an American Airman.

I am a warrior.

I have answered my nation’s call.

I am an American Airman.

My mission is to fly, fight, and win.

I am faithful to a proud heritage,

A tradition of honor,

And a legacy of valor.

I am an American Airman,

Guardian of freedom and justice,

My nation’s sword and shield,

Its sentry and avenger.

I defend my country with my life.

I am an American Airman:

Wingman, leader, warrior.

I will never leave an Airman behind,

I will never falter,

And I will not fail.

10 down, 20 to go!

2008-01-05T15:30:00.000-05:00

Since I've been giving my health the attention that it needs, I've dropped a solid ten-pounds. This isn't weight dropped suddenly, but rather weight that has been slowly lost since my arrival in November. I seriously am not interested in rapid weight loss - it's not healthy and [let's face it] I don't have the metabolism to accomplish such a feat anymore. My goal is lose an additional twenty-pounds in the next four months; not a lofty goal, but one within reason.

My exercise routine has been steady and [thanks to my new Squadron] my cardio program is now performed prior to my strength-building program... NOT AT ALL EASY! On my down days, I am considering lap swimming on the strong recommendation from a good friend.

On the food side of the house, I've taken on the challenge to learn how to prepare health-hearty meals which aide in lowering LDL cholesterol, especially since I am no longer taking Zocor (simvistatin). Of course, the challenge is not too difficult... it's just that I want to learn how to with culinary-flair.

Sushi and Fried Spring Rolls

2008-01-01T01:00:00.000-05:00

Tonight has been one of those nights of food experimentation... actually, that's only partially true. So yeah, earlier, I had been craving sushi and a long with that thought, fried spring rolls as well. Making the spring rolls is nothing new to me; I learned how to from a good friend in Misawa, Japan. They're really easy to make, just a little time consuming since you really can't make only a few (especially from scratch). I rolled about twenty-one; fried five to eat, and froze the rest for a later time.

The true experiment was making nigiri-sushi*; again, not hard to make, just time consuming. Since this was an impromptu menu I didn't make the time to go and get the appropriate material (e.g., using a long grain rice instead of a short grained, Japanese-rice). Using a long grain, I didn't wash it out completely so that a portion of the starch/gluten remained to assist the sweetened vinager-mixture in forming the rice balls. I kept it pretty simple, making only sake (salmon) nigiri-sushi.

Overall, I'm quite impressed with myself. The spring rolls are probably one my better batches; the sushi... good. Next time, with a little more thought and planning, I'll venture into some of my other favorite types of nigiri-sushi. One thing, however, I have noticed the soy sauces here are slightly saltier and bold in flavor; I prefer the mild, less-salty varieties from Japan.

*nigiri-sushi: the type of sushi where a piece of sashimi is laid atop a ball of rice. Other varities include: Makizushi, a cylindrical piece formed with the help of a bamboo mat, called a makisu . Makizushi is generally wrapped in nori (seawead) - there are about six common makizushi varities (rolls, cones, etc.).

Merry Christmas

2007-12-26T03:30:00.000-05:00

In (what has become my) tradition, I served a Christmas dinner for those from my work center. Actually, dinner was the second meal I served today; the first, I assisted the Top 3 organization from work and prepared a large, lunch meal for those who were on duty today.

So without further ado, here is what was on tonight's dinner menu:

Hors d' oeuvres: Pesto Pinwheels, Antipasto Salad, Caprese Salad

Entrees: Maple-mustard crusted Pork Loin, Chicken Wellingtons

Sides: Asparagus Spears, Scalloped Potatoes, Tossed Green Salad

Desserts: Choc. Chip Cookies, Oatmeal Raisin Cookies, White Chocolate-Cranberry Scones, Apple Tarts

Drinks: Sweetened Ice Tea, Horchata

Fatty’s okay for now

2007-12-21T04:00:00.000-05:00

Okay, so most of you know that over the years, I’ve put on some poundage. Since 1996 (when I first enlisted) I’ve gained an average of 35Lbs. This past year, however, I was quite alarmed when I hit 230 by mid summer. In the past this wasn’t really too much concern since I had always maintained a low BMI. Of course, as I get on in years weight remains relatively the same – however, the fat-to-muscle ratio is not so good… hence my portly state.

Well, this year I’ve been really concerned about my annual fitness exam. Earlier this year, I was diagnosed with tendonitis in the right shoulder and a fear of a torn rotator cuff (most likely a result from over-compensating from dislocating my left shoulder from the previous year); also, an exponentially larger gut from the lack of running. If you don’t know, our AF fitness exam is graded on a point system derived from sit-ups, push-ups, abdominal measurements, and 1.5 mile run-time. Given my (self-inflicted) poor state of health, logically this means that I’m done for!

Shockingly, I passed! I came close to maxing out on my push-ups and sit-ups, and my run-time is back down to within a minute of my average 11.5 minute, mile-and-a-half. Though I’m grateful to have passed, I’m really embarrassed about my waist measurement… there’s a reason why Kenar used to call me chunk-butt! Grrrr!

Faux Pas

2007-12-09T04:00:00.000-05:00

Being back in the States after three years in Germany and three years in Japan, comes with certain, petty... quirkiness'(?). Take dining out for instance. I have totally forgotten how going out to eat at a resaurant by yourself is such an absolute, BIG NO-NO! I was amazed at the reaction I received from the restaurant's host and waitress when I mentioned that it was just me. I guess they didn't know whether or not to feel bad for me, or wonder what was wrong with me.

In Europe and Japan, it's not a big deal - at all. As a matter of fact, I rather enjoyed it. In Germany it was great! The waitress' wouldn't bat an eye, but instead join me in conversation or even in meal. There were even instances when, if table space was limited, you would be seated at a table with some random person - that was acceptable and enjoyable as well.

It's unfortunate that we American's are so consumed with our personal space, wanting nothing to do with your fellow 'neighbor,' loathing the so-called 'loners.'

Does she not realize???

2007-12-08T02:00:00.000-05:00

I had stopped at a Taco Bell for lunch... the cashier was an elderly woman. At first, she had an uncertain air about her that I couldn't quite place. It was blatantly obvious that she was separated from her co-workers by age.

Within moments of our conversation (before I had even a chance to order), I discovered that she was depressed about the holidays; her husband past away sometime in the recent past. She may have said when, but, honestly, I was flabbergasted that I knew that much about her, to even remember if she had! Additionally, it wasn't long into our conversation that I determined [with certainty] she was Christian by the overt use of language.

Eventually, I placed my order, seated myself and began to eat. It wasn't long before she had left the register, pretended to clean-up an area, and seated herself at my table. At that point I had felt bad, assuming that she was hurting inside for someone to talk to - selfishly, I was upset because I had been starving and wanting nothing more than to eat. I know, I know. Anyhow, she attempted to compliment me on my faith when, suddenly, all sincerity of the moment was destroyed by a most distasteful, racist comment (with regard to her "minority" co-workers). I... well I was appalled at first, but then confused... does she not realize with whom she had been speaking?

(this actually occurred over the Thanksgiving weekend, on my return trip home from Connecticut)

Age

2007-12-04T02:00:00.000-05:00

With the utmost sincerity and innocence, one of my youngest Airmen asked me today:

"Sgt Alvarez, are you old?"

Bless her heart...

Finally!

2007-11-30T02:30:00.000-05:00

What's today? 29 November 2007 - and today (finally), my household goods and un-accompanied bagged arrived! The sad part is that I had my house packed out on the 27th of September!!! It wasn't supposed turn out this way (this time), but none-the-less, it did. Regardless, I am thankfull that everything arrived undamaged. I just felt bad for the two (yes, only two) movers that had to bring everything up three flights of steps - poor dudes. I'll get mines, though... if all goes well and I go through with buying a house next year, I'm gonna have to move out this joint. Not to worry, though... I'll have Antonio and Regi, MY BROS FROM JAPAN, to be here and help me move outta here! Thanks, fellas! The only thing left to receive are my stored items from when I left Germany. Go figure... the one shipment that has been in the States for the last threes years, and only a hop-ship-and-a-jump away in Maryland, will be the last shipment to arrive. Hmmm? TMO hasn't mentioned anything about that shipment lately... I HOPE THE DIDN'T LOSE IT!!!!! ARGHHH!!!!!!

My new crib and sweet-ride!

2007-11-18T03:00:00.001-05:00

Here is what the exterior of my place looks like

This is the living room and dining area as you walk inside

The kitchen

Kitchen/dining area, looking toward the bedrooms and bathrooms
The entryway

Views from the balcony:

My Truck from the Balcony (2007 Dodge Ram 1500)

At Buckroe Beach pier/park

Pavillion and pier at Buckroe Beach

Buckroe Beach lighthouse

L.A. Vacation (5 - 12 Nov 2007)

2007-11-12T21:11:00.000-05:00

This was definitely the most memorable trip home for me, as I was truly blessed to be in L.A. for the arrival of my sister, Trish's and bro-in-law, Fabian's, third child, Genavive Helene Heredia! (don't quote me on the spelling).

She is absolutely beautiful, as are her elder siblings, Bella-boo and Cryin' Ryan!

(somehow, I managed to not shoot a single pic during my time in L.A.)

To all my neices and nephews:

"May the Lord bless you and keep you;

May the Lord make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you;

May the Lord turn his countenance upon you and give you peace."

--Numbers 6:24-26

Hawaiin Vacation (30 Oct - 5 Nov 2007)

2007-11-05T21:04:00.000-05:00

Insert into your imagination:

*cool pics,
*cool stories (about Waikiki Beach, North Shore, Volcanoes, and WWII battlesites and memorials)
* pics of gorgeous and sweet, hawaiian mamas'

It was a great trip!

What a nice segue!

2007-10-30T03:39:00.000-04:00

Never in my wildest dreams would I have considered coming to Hawaii as an appropriate segue, or re-acclimation to American culture. I've spent three years in Japan, and let me tell ya(!), initially going to Japan was a "brick-wall" of culture shock, in and of itself... and, now, I feel the same way about the States (keep in mind that I've lived a total of six years in two foreign countries).

Man, seriously. I knew that Hawaii was a very popular vacation spot for Japanese tourist, but when you add their total number to that of the Hawaii residents of Japanese descent, and throw in all the popular restaurant habits/styles of Japan (on this island), and add the English/Japanese bi-linguists, it's almost as if I brought Japan with me!

But, you know what? There are no cats in America and the streets are paved with cheese! J/P. Naw, seriously, though... I'M BACK HOME - somewhat! :)

Good-bye, Japan! Hello, Virginia???

2007-10-29T03:36:00.000-04:00

Tomorrow, I will leave from my three-year stint here at Misawa AB, Japan - for good! I leave here: knowing that I spent my time very well; with a promotion to Technicial Sergeant (officially Nov 1st - yes in two-days!); and an experience filled with magnificent culture and genuine friendships!

The last nine, of my eleven-and-a-half "Air Force Years" have been overseas and abroad, and I imagine it is best for me to return home at this time. Though at first reluctant, I now look forward to reacquainting myself with the US. My new residence will be centered on Langley AFB (Hampton, Virginia area) where, one day, I hope to share in the pleasure of your company as you pass through or stop for a visit!

Looking forward to the journey ahead!

Until Today

2007-10-24T09:27:00.000-04:00

Today, I had taken advantage of my remaining free-time here and chose a leisurely stroll through Shimoda Mall. It’s your typical mall: a food court, a Cineplex theater, stores that cater to the lavish needs of every woman and all items grotesquely over priced. Personally, I had never gone there for clothes shopping, let alone meandering. Shortly after my arrival here three-years ago, I found that I am much larger than your average-sized Japanese-male and unable to find suitable sizes. Typically, my intent is to search out novelty gifts, grab a bite to eat, or even catch a flick. Literally, there are few items at the Shimoda Mall that ever captivate my attention – today that changed,

While at Jusco Supermarket, I picked up a couple bags of hard candy and proceeded towards the check-stand to make my purchase. There was an elderly lady in front of me, whom of which just handed the cashier a sum of Yen to pay for her groceries. The cashier collected the offered amount and prepared to hand-back the change due to the elderly woman. In the course of my observation of the exchange, the elderly woman did not acknowledge the cashier’s hand of return. It was at that moment I took notice of her surprisingly flushed face, as she gripped her shopping cart to maintain balance; the cashier and I stood perplexed, yet consumed with the moment.

What seemed like several minutes, had only been but a few seconds before I had moved about to assist this unknown lady. As I had moved to position myself beside her, she collapsed backwards into my arms. Though I had been in disbelief, I acted instinctively and managed to shift her body weight from my arms onto my left thigh. Walking her back, I progressed to lie her down gently onto the ground. As I knelt at her head, she lied on the cool tiled floor. Her face flushed of all color, void of expressed emotion; she had fixed her eyes directly upon the ceiling. I cannot recall making the decision, but realized that, while embracing her neck in one hand, I had removed her shoulder-slung purse from beneath her back and grasped her right wrist to check for a pulse; it was faint. Again, in what had seemed like minutes, but only a few seconds, she regained consciousness, her natural facial color and what appeared to be an overwhelming sense of disorientation.

What must have went through her mind? I can only speculate. It had been painfully obvious that she had no clue.

What had happened?

Why was she lying on the ground?

Why was there a gaijin (a foreigner) embracing her wrist?

She had attempted to remove herself from the ground twice, but was prevented so by one of the Jusco employees. It was at that moment, I had regained my own “peripheral-consciousness.”

From where have all these people arrived?

Lord, help me help her!

I had felt so useless. I had been incapable of simple communication: Are you okay? Can you hear me? I’m here to help you. I found that I had become overwhelmed with shame.

Eventually, I had departed the scene, trusting the woman’s care into the hands of the proper authorities. I don’t know what had become of her and this ill-fated event. I don’t believe I will ever know. Mystified, I had aimlessly wandered the length of the mall. I was annoyed with myself, confused in my own thoughts and irritated by the thundering sound of the Beatles song “All you need is love” bellowing from a nearby store.

I’ve spent the last three years here at Misawa AB, Japan, without resolve to learn the Japanese language. Until today, of course, I had no regret.

Last Post...

2007-02-24T01:00:00.000-05:00

This will be my last post. I will not de-activitate until the end of March - this will give those [who desire] to copy whatever photos or entries.

Word to the wise...

2007-02-05T08:45:00.000-05:00

Rented a couple of movies tonight... Unknown: good - would have been great, but they waited until the last two minutes to explain everything (and they weren't even clear about). The Marine: H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E!!!! John Cena, don't quit your day job!

Word to the wise: when you travel in Japan (at night), make sure you get on the correct toll road!

It wasn't my fault... Corby made me do it!

WHINE... WHINE>>> WHINE!!!

2007-01-26T07:24:00.000-05:00

Over the years, I have been participant to friendships (of many sorts) which went awry.

I had befriended a married couple where I was wrongfully accused of sleeping with the wife; I had given absolute loyalty and trust to an employer whom of which dishonored and maligned me; and I have given everything to certain friends whom of which have disgraced, abused, and have deceived substantially.

What I dislike most is dealing with the consequence of un-wise choices for each situation. Where do you draw the line? How do you quit? Or even, do you quit? Do you attempt to make amends and allow the friendship to recuperate?

My choices for each have been different. In one situation, I removed the thorn from my life altogether. In another, I am forced to remain professional for the sake (and sanity) of my career and myself. Meanwhile, with the others, it is not so easy…………………………………………………………….....................................................................................................…………….........................................................................................................................................................

pointless digression, and whining

…………………………………………………............................................................................................................……………………….............................................................................................................................................
all horrible situations…
all taxing on the mind, heart, and spirit…
all avoidable…
and, all forgivable.
The end.

Within eyesight...

2007-01-23T08:28:00.000-05:00

I have come to the realization that I am in my last nine month's of residency here in Japan. I have enjoyed Japan, thoroughly... where I work... eh? Not so much so.

My only regret: In the pursuit of a few, I did not allow all other friendships to fully develop.

Spiritually speaking, Misawa has been a time of maturation, leaving spiritual adolescence behind.

A toast~ to the remaining nine months, strengthened friendships, and committed faith!

Christmas Dinner

2006-12-25T09:00:00.000-05:00

How do ya like the set-up? It turned out fairly well. So dinner, also, went well. The menu was pretty creative: Polynesian (well, mostly).

The Menu:

Honey Glazed Ham
Ginger and Leek Lamb Chops
Polynesian Meatballs in Sweet Sauce
Spring Rolls and Lumpia with Sweet Chili Sauce
Fresh, Buttered Asparagus
Fresh Green Salad
Relish Plater with Ranch Dip
Bean Soup
Brownies
Mini Chocolate Chip Cookies
Pumpkin Pie

Like Thanksgiving, I realize that I don't have any pictures of the social aspect of the evening; trust me, it was very enjoyable! In all about 12 friends showed up throughout the evening. It was cool, because we ate a ton of grub... watched Die Hard (the ultimate testosterone Christmas movie)... had the PS2 going on one TV with Guitar Hero... PS3 going with Ridge Racer... the X-box 360 going with Carbon Need for Speed and Call of Duty... and then later on, Ben brought his Nintendo Wii (we played bowling, golf, and tennis)... Christmas was a blast, to say the least. I ended the night by watching the first four episodes of 24, Season Five - Jack Bauer kicks AL:KSDJFSLFLSF!!!!

Thank you, Sir...

2006-12-08T04:30:00.000-05:00

...May I have another?

It was impromptu... short... comical! Today I entered into my third enlistment. As of today, I have served a total of 10 years, 9 months,and 2 days. My third oath of enlistment will extend my commitment until Dec8, 2012. WHOA! Remember: twenty is my desired, minimum-time in the Air Force.

On a more important note (familiy, that is), my beloved

youngest sister,Trisha, is 26years young, today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

May God continue to bless you, and your family, as we are blessed by you!

Much wub, my wubbly thister!!!

Julie and I with our favorite

little thister, Trisha, on her wedding day.

Thanksgiving Celebration

2006-11-23T22:30:00.000-05:00

Yesterday went very well! My guests of honor were the fine Airmen that are assigned me here in Japan. I originally invited about eight people for the Thanksgiving meal, but ended up with about thirteen people by nights end.

Since I have been in the military, I have always worked for a great many hard-working, and caring individuals, who selflessly went out of their way to accommodate the needs of their peers and those whom they employed. They were (are) great role-models and, along with my parents, have been great instructors of altruistic-philanthropy for whom I wish to pattern my life.

The Menu: with the exception of the turkey, I prepared a rather traditional meal; cran-apple stuffing, scalloped potatoes, candied yams, green bean casserole, Hawaiian rolls, french rolls, cranberry relish, a spiral ham, and charcoal roasted turkey (of which I soaked over night in a honey brine). Mmmm... delicious! For desserts, nothing extraordinaire - pumpkin and pecan pies, mandarin-orange fruit salad, brownies, and a small flutes of Sangue-di-Giuda (an Italian dessert wine (an after meal digestive))!

Course Complete!

2006-11-06T15:10:00.000-05:00

Today, at approximately 0800Hrs, I successfully tested out of Course E3AZR3C251-01RA: Network Management Infrastructure (all 176 hrs worth!). After one month, I am definitely ready to go back to my home in Japan. I have learned a lot technically, made some new acquaintances, reunited with a friend, and even learned more about my self-discipline (good and bad).

So yeah, Saturday night I was walking home from the base mini-mall when I was stopped by the Pizza Hut delivery man. I looked in his direction as he pointed at me with perplexity. I quickly turned away and started to walk off, but stopped as I realized that he was not driving away. I turned back and stared intently at this dude for about a minute before I realized it was my buddy Heath Fidler! Fid and I were stationed together at my first base in Idaho and also at my second base in Alaska. What a trip! We made a arrangements to meet up later that night at the Beau Rivage - unfortunately, it didn't happen. At the least, he and I chatted for a bit to catch up with one another. He's now married and he's here performing instructor duty for tech schoolers of Ground Radio Maintenance. The last time I saw Fid was back in early 2001, before I left on deployment to Vicenza, Italy.

Lastly, about my self-discipline. For the many of you, thank you for your prayers. You may have already read in my previous posts about my struggle with being here in Biloxi. I have learned that, just as scripture reads, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. And how very true it is when I don't put myself first. On the whole, I believe idolatry runs ramped today under the guise of aggressive-individuality. Not fully developing the topic, my belief is that we have a great tendency to indulge in ourselves (our image, worth/validity, our service, etc.) to the point we become our own idols. Idolatry, in short, is putting a "god" before the God. When we become our own idols, we put ourselves (in priority) above the one and only God.

This past weekend, I made a very poor choice and put my desire for drunken pleasure above all things. For those that are not familiar with scripture, it is very clear that drunkenness (not drinking), that is sinful. There are few instances in clerical positions (among others) where alcohol consumption is forbidden. My intent this past Saturday was nothing short of getting drunk. That I did, and I'm always startled and afraid of how much alcohol I can consume (even after long periods of no consumption whatsoever).

After some thought, I believe my primary motivation was to "fit" in with rest of the guys from class. I've always had a need to "fit" in. A lot of it has to do with things like my past obsession with popularity. I can't tell how often I used to compromise myself for the sake of popularity and clicking with everyone -- I digress.

In any case, I made a very poor decision and I now have to deal with its consequence. Honestly speaking, what I have done is no different from what Ted Haggard has done. I don't believe in degrees of sin - sin is sin. He and I both made poor decisions to sin and he and I both disgraced the image to the body of believers. What are our choices? We can continue to choose poorly, or we can choose to repent, ask for forgiveness (from God first, and then from those whom we have hurt along the way), and re-acquire our spiritual focus.

I thought I had seen it all...

2006-10-31T20:30:00.000-05:00

Until... ESPN2... The Crystal burger eating contest.

NASTY!

Double-takes galore!

2006-10-28T20:00:00.000-04:00

So yeah... I went to the mall today. Dude, I miss American malls - they actually carry my size of clothing at every store!

Today was a total inflation of the ego! It's always a great feeling to know that one can make heads turn. LOL. It all started when I first left my room this morning and two of the house keeping ladies were talking two rooms down. They both stopped mid-conversation; one smiled and said, "mmmHHHMMmmm! Good morning, sir!" - the other just followed me with her eyes all the way down the corridor as I passed by (totally going out of my way to make her look (hehehehehe!).

This happened a total of nine times today. Interesting to note that seven of the heavy stares came from the sista's, one latina, and one very flirtatious white chick from Buckles clothing store. (Duh! Of course I counted!!!) The Buckles chick flirted with me for a good hour... granted she wanted me to buy clothing for the commission, but I made her work for it! I finally left with a 7daimond shirt and thermal. I'll be making my reappearance at Buckles soon!

Now to go and get my hair cut by the flirtatious latina at the barber shop! MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Writing for the sake of habit...

2006-10-27T19:25:00.000-04:00

I don't have much to say. Wednesday's test went really well. My partner and I created our networks in record time - 1 hour 20 minutes!!!

This weekend will be the first weekend that all our classmates will remain in town - so we made a pack to make it as "fun-filled" as possible. If you don't speak TDY-lian that translates into to "drunkeness." I don't mind going out with them, it's just that sometimes the fun last much longer than I want to hang. As it stands, I'm supposed to meet up with them tonight, late tonight... In my head I have already resolved to just get my hair cut, rent a couple of movies, and just chill the rest of the evening in my room. Tomorrow, however, we're gonna rent a pontoon and cruise the back bay - sounds to be fun. Sunday... well what is there to do but watch football! We'll probably go the "Katrina Katina"... it's the make shift enlisted club on base, now located in the marina.

I hope you all enjoy your weekend!

Bent out of shape... suck it up?

2006-10-26T12:30:00.000-04:00

For the longest time I had purposed to hide my thoughts, emotions, actions, etc., from others. It was a proctection mechanism that I instituted to prevent myself from allowing others to crush my spirits (clinical, I know). Over the past five years, I have gradually allowed myself to express more of these things. Over the past year, I have fully let my guard down to a select few individuals - a feat I've never accomplished even with my own family! Since I've open myself up I find that I am, now, truly crushed and bent out of shape when someone sends the littlest of white lies in my direction.

I'm tired of putting up with it. In my head I have already resolved to revert back to my old habit, along with not freely offering trust anymore. I hate the thought, but not more than feeling worthless after the abuse of my trust and having my spirit crushed.

Am I being a sensitive little school girl?
Or should I just suck it up?

In any case, I'm tired of it...
I have yet to pray about it...
And, sadly, I admitt I am not wanting to forgive.

Pictures from this past weekend

2006-10-24T19:30:00.000-04:00

Well, as I mentioned in yesterday's posting, below are a few pics from this weekend. They're not much, but are indeed sentimental!

This is my neice, Bella (Isabella) who looks just like my sis Trish from when she ws this age.

This is my newest, handsomest, nephew, Ryan! Now Ryan is the spittin' image of my brother-in-law, Fabian!

And this is my gorgeous cousin Kristina, the Quinceanera!

As for today:
Not much happened today... just A LOT of practice for tomorrow
s progress-check/block test. Tomorrow's test will, by far, be the most challenging. My partner and I have three and a half hours to build four separate autonomous networks, each with a access switching layer, a distribution switching layer, and one border router. Once the individual networks are established we have to inter-connect each access layer switch to it's distro switch and two one of the adjoining network's distro. Then, we will have to have redundant connections between all four distro switches. Next we will create hot-standy routing with the four physical routers and also create four virtual routers. All along the way, we will be establishing twelve virtual LAN's. The end goal/proof-of-concept is to have each host/client PC from the twelve vLANs ping all the other PCs from their opposing vLAN. COOL SCHTUFF, EH?!!

Weekend in review/road to recovery

2006-10-23T19:30:00.000-04:00

I had a blast this past weekend! Friday afternoon, I flew out of New Orleans and arrived at Tucson in the evening. My cousin Daniel picked me up, and from there it was nothing but none-stop fun and family!!! For whatever reason, he (and a few others in my family) was determined to get me drunk. As a matter of fact Daniel said, prior to my arrival at Tucson, that he was going to have a cold one waiting for me, but then stopped and said with disappointment, "oh, nevermind, you don't drink anymore!" I chuckled and said, "for you and with you, I will have 'A' beer!" Of course from then on he truly was determined to see me smashed - as entertaining as he was, I'm sorry to say he failed. LOL. All in all, I had four beers this weekend... (Matt, sorry bro. - for those of you who do not know, Matt is my accountability partner).

Everything went very well! My cousin Kristina was absolutely gorgeous and many others in my family looked really, really nice. Visiting with my two nieces and my two nephews was (as always) awesome! I met my nephew Ryan for the first time, too! He is a spittin' image of my brother-in-law, Fabian; his sister, Isabella is a spittin' image of my sister Trish. And Alexis and David are both spittin' images of my sister Julie.

Leaving was a FIASCO!!! Here's the deal: as far as the school house here in Mississippi is concerned, they don't care where you go on the weekends as long as you are back for school on Monday morning, bright and early, 6am! Let me just say this... when I went to check in at 1230pm for my 130pm flight I was rejected for checking in TOO early... 24hours early!!!! The agent with whom my father made the flight arrangements messed up and had me leaving Tucson at 130pm, Monday afternoon!!! So how did it all work out? Too much to tell... suffice it to say that, $1,500 later, I made it back to Keesler AFB, Monday morning at 1:30A.M. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO YEAH!!! I FEEL WASTED!!! If only Daniel could see me now!

The continuing saga of why I hate Biloxi...

2006-10-23T19:15:00.000-04:00

Went to Applebees... there were two customers in the entire joint: a man sitting at the bar playing some electronic poker game and I at table twenty feet away. Staff-wise, two bartender's, four waiters/waitress', two hostess', and a manager. I was seated and for the following 20 minutes observed the other man served a beverage and all the employees yapping away! No drink, no waiter or waitress, no concern for this customer... I stood up, looked at the manager, then my watch, and then walked out the door.

Phew!

2006-10-19T18:00:00.000-04:00

Past my test!

This morning I had an awesome surprise of a phone call - my cousin Daniel called me and said that he was trying to get out of a job in Penn. to go to our cousin's Quinceanera in Tucson!

THAT'S FRICKIN' SWEET!

Daniel was my best friend during the two years I lived in N.M. for Junior High School! I don't do well to keep in touch (as MANY of you all know), but it's pretty awesome that Daniel (and the many of you) that don't hold it against me - too harshly, that is! *WINK*

So yeah... about that test...

2006-10-18T18:45:00.000-04:00

Sometimes, cockiness (AKA: Pride), likes to knock us down... I barely passed today's test. What kills me is that on one of the questions I filled in the bubble for "E" - the only choices were A-D! What in the world???? Oh well.

And get this... our next block (two) used to be five days long. That said, we finished our test around 8am this morning - tomorrow morning (0730) we test out of block two!!! ARGHHHH! Information overload! And, once again, I will be joining my classmates for group study in about an hour from now... SO MUCH FOR HITTING UP LADIES NIGHT AT THE BEAU RIVAGE!!!! Just kidding... I wasn't going to the Beau Rivage. ;)

On another note... my classmates are cool... I'm just not one of them (so-to-speak). My interaction with them will most likely remain superficial and academic. I'm not a drinker, smoker, cusser, partier... etc. I'm the only christian and, man, am I really separated from them.... I can't wait to be back with the homies in M-Town. LOL!

Anyway... two days until I get to see my family in Tucson!

Tornado watch over: The continuing saga of why I hate Biloxi.

2006-10-17T16:00:00.000-04:00

So yeah... last night a tornado watch was issued until 7am this morning - phew! No tornados here... just A TON OF HOT, NASTY RAIN! YUCK! I HATE RAIN!

Today in class, we wrapped up our first series of lab applications. Lots of geeky stuff such as creating LANs, campus networks, VLANs, multi-layer switching, and HSRP (like I said, geeky stuff). Tomorrow, I have my first of four tests - it should be pretty easy. This first block pretty much covered a lot of technology with which I am familiar. None-the-less, my classmates and I are going meet up for a group study some time after dinner.

So, in case you didn't know, Keesler AFB practices compressed work-weeks every other week so that they can have a three-day weekend on the alternating weeks (Does that sound right?). This weekend happens to be my first three day weekend here. With much thanks to my old man's graciousness I'll be flying out to meet him and the rest of my family in Tucson for my cousin's Quinceanera (a mexican girl's sweet sixteen - but really, it's a sweet fifteen). Rock-on old man!!! I'll be flying out of New Orleans; unfortunately, I just found out that the local shuttle from here in Biloxi no longer services New Orleans Airport. Just a minor incident... I'm sure I'll be able to find my way there, regardless.

Not much else happening here.

Why I don't like Biloxi.

2006-10-15T13:10:00.000-04:00

Do you know why I don't like Biloxi? Let me tell you. I have a history here that is not one for which I am proud. Ten years ago, while attending Tech School, I was very indulgent in the consumption of alcohol (it was the begining of my life as an alcoholic). Additionally, during subsequent visits, I was sexually promiscuous; both are a past for which I am extremely ashamed (NOTE: important to mention is that I know I have God's forgiveness as I have also forgiven myself). But, most frustrating, is the fact that this is my first visit here since becoming a Christian and my presence here is now a struggle with temptation. Everday here, has been one mental/spiritual struggle after another where I find myself wanting to have a beer, or even go to find female companionship. I am grateful, however, to God that he has kept me ever vigilant and convicted to remain in Him and not given in to my temptations. I am grateful to know that I have family and friends who keep me in prayer, as I them. Thank you so very much!!!

During this mornings church service the Chaplain mentioned how God protects us through our struggles - he allows it [our struggles]. How often do we see a struggle ahead and pray for God to keep us from it? All too often. The Chaplain used Shadrach, Mesach, and Abednego for illustration - as well as Daniel, and others. I need to be ever constant in my mind and understand that I have to endure hardship and know (now matter what the struggle) that I do have God's promise to see me through.

Lastly, Today was a diferrent experience for me at church. I was out of my element - out of familiarity and comfort. I almost became sad because I didn't have my family of friends from Misawa with me to be in worship. It almost distracted me to the point where I could have become so consumed with myself that I could have easily robbed God of his due worship.

(MANY, MANY things going through my minds lately... sorry for the unstructured ramblings).

Back in Ol' Miss

2006-10-10T12:30:00.000-04:00

So yeah... I'm back in Mississippi, again. I don't know why, but I'm always ambivalent about being here in Biloxi. It was cool back in the day (ten years ago, when I first came here for Tech School), but now I've been here so many times since that it no longer has any appeal. Very interesting, to say the least, how ravaged this place is as a result of hurricane Katrina... I'll have to post pics later.

Hope everyone is well. My travel here went well.

Ahh... America. I've been overseas for so long that I've almost forgotten how gorgeous the women are over here! Horray for Geogia peaches and Southern Belles! *WINK*

Brightens my day...

2006-09-28T08:30:00.000-04:00

I'm afraid of what she'll say...
I don't dare ask...
It's been a while since I've felt this way...
I hide it...
She enters the room...
and I smile.

"Land of the Rising Sun"

2006-09-15T08:00:00.000-04:00

Here are a few pictures from Tanesashi Beach:

Want to chill with me?

2006-09-14T08:30:00.000-04:00

I am going to designate one night a week, for which I will host a dinner for a group of friends; we'll eat, shoot the breeze, watch a movie - whatever. Idealy, yes, a Friday, Saturday, or Sunday evening would be best, but I'm not objecting to a weekday.

This is what I miss about my past... I want to recapture it.
Interested?

2006-09-13T07:00:00.000-04:00

I give it my all...
And try too hard...
An addict of social gatherings...
Nothing.
Shallow.
Lonely. I hate emotions!

I help out...
You get what you want...
I wait...
Nothing.
Shallow.
Used. I hate emotions!

I cry out...
I confess...
You forgive...
Embraced.
Filled.
Loved. What emtions?

Thank you, Lord.

BLAH!

2006-09-09T11:30:00.000-04:00

I have seen and done more things in the last ten years of my life, than most will ever do in a life-time. But, I bet you one thing – they, most likely, have a sense of fulfillment for their life, whereas I do not. To explain, I look at all the people I’ve encountered and have seen how many of them have changed, grown, and move on. I don’t feel that I have done that with my life.

Tonight, I watched an old 8mm video I made with my friend Jason Phelps. I was stationed at Sembach, Germany, where I met Jason. He went to Germany for a three (maybe four) month, temporary duty assignment to augment our programmers. Long story short… he played the guitar for the Young Adults ministry I started at Sembach… we become friends. Yada, yada, yada. As I watched through the video I laughed so hard – SO many great memories! But, then, I realized something about myself: I’ve never changed. It’s sad, but true, but I still see myself as the same corny kid I was from when I first came into the military. I mean, yeah, sure I’m a Christian now, but, man… nothing else is different! I’m still single, hang out with people considerably younger than I, and I seriously have to stop sometimes and remind myself that I am 31!

I long to be married… I long to have children… I long to love my wife… to fight with her… to apologize to her… to love her… protect her… and so-on. BUT (!) I am reluctant to move forward. I still approach women the way I always have – saying nothing more than I always find an excuse to not pursue a relationship.

As I write this, I’m reminded of an episode from Friends, when Monica goes out on a date with and old H.S. crush, Chip Matthews. Anyway, Chip never changed. He still acted as a H.S. jock; talked like a H.S. jock; still hung out with his H.S. jock buddies; and still worked at his H.S. job – the movie theater! I AM CHIP MATTHEWS!!!!!! (so-to-speak)

The reality, however, is that now that I am ready to move on, I find that I am restless. I have a year left here in Japan. For me, that’s not enough time to get to know my future wife. I know that, after Japan, I will most likely get a year-long hardship tour, where, yet again, I don’t foresee a relationship likely to develop. In my mind I have resolved to wait until after the hard-ship tour before I am able to pursue “wife-hunting.” HAHAHA!

I just don’t think I can wait another two years!

A WORD TO THE WISE: All these words are not in attempts to have you hook me up with anyone – I’m just venting. Thanks, though.

Big Buddha... (in Aomori)

2006-07-23T09:40:00.000-04:00

Went to see the biggest Buddha statue that there be in deez neck of dee wooods of northern Japan... cool scenery... Buddha worship freaks me out, though!

Sometimes, it amazes at what I experience here in Japan... Such as this mens restroom where men can be observed urinating... my buddy Dan demonstrates (Demo only - Not the actual act).

Here Abi show us just how
observable this can be...

This is a cool water spigot that is common at most temple, where one would use the fountain to cleanse one's hands before... uhm... something buddha-ish - I think.

Look! A pagoda!

Awww! little buddha wannabees!

TO BE CONTINUED... BLOGGER is being a booger and won't upload my schtuff! I promise... I do have some more cool pics of green tirds, sweet swamps, and the fat man himself. Okay, okay. What I meant to say is, green catipillars, sweets decorative ponds, and the Buddha statue.

Lake Ogawara

2006-07-09T05:00:00.000-04:00

Today was a good day. I enjoyed a great nights rest; I enjoyed breakfast with my buddy Matt and helped him begin his new journey towards an AF commission that will - God willing - allow him to become a helicopter pilot; I enjoyed a good morning Chapel service; I enjoyed a good lunch meal with Dan and Abi eating sushi; and spent the majority of the afternoon with Anthony, Ashley, lil' Katie, Dan and Abi on Lake Ogawara, tubing it up!

(click on pic for larger view)

1. Anthony, Ashley, and Katie
2. Abi and Ashley on the mega tube
3. Abi
4. Dan
5. Anthony, Ashley, and Katie
6. Me
7. Abi and I on the mega tube
8. Abi on the tube... me WAY IN BACK!!

We a had blast - only the lady's and I enjoyed the tube... Dan wimped out and Anthony, well, he's the only one with a license to ride the boat (for now that is). I was the only one to have lost my grip on the ride and ended up in the lake!!!

I look forward to more trips!

To wrap things up, Anthony and Ashley have invited us all to their home for homemade pizza! MMMMMmmmm... grub!

2006-06-08T16:00:00.000-04:00

What better way to start thirty-one, then, this morning, with an eight-mile run!

Lord, thank you.

Arrgh!

2006-06-08T08:00:00.000-04:00

Ever get those moments of un-explained anxiety?

So I missed a day!

2006-06-07T17:45:00.000-04:00

Okay. Okay. I said I was going to start using this thing again, daily, and (yes) I've already missed a day! Anyhow... yesterday was a bit different I was supposed to be in this training class all week long, but it was cancelled due to higher-priority training that is required by the Air Force; however, I still managed to get out of that - at least for the day, that is.

I'm a member of this private organization called, "ENCORE." I'm not going to explain what is because it's too AF technical, but just know for now that it's a middle-tier association. *scrathes head with utter confusion* Again, anyway, this past weekend there was festivity called America Day for which ENCORE hosted a both and sold ribs, wings, chilli, nachos, and chilli-cheese nachos. I originally purchased 80 slabs of ribs for the two-day event, and sold all but 27 slabs due to lack of grill space (BTW, I was in charge of all the food).

So yesterday, ENCORE sold the remaining ribs for lunch at our duty location called Security Hill. Between myself, Mike, Michelle, and Jacqueline, we did well - very well! We managed to rid ourselves of almost all the ribs, and had a chance to bring some home with us. All I can say is that Mike (no, I'm not talking of myself in the third person) and I make a great grill team! First of all Mike got compliments on his dry rub from all the judges at American Day, and all day yesterday, we both receive compliments galore! Stuff like this gets me all hyped up! I truly love grilling. If I could do it full time, I would heavily consider it as a profession! Anyway, I pretty much did that all day, up until I had to go to my Physical Health assessment, wreaking of smoke - it was a hoot!

Today... well, I'm gonna be busy! I've gotta get the house all spic-n-span for my party on Saturday, and I've gotta get my birfday gift (that I bought for myself) put together - A new stainless steal, charbroil grill! It's so sweet and I'm so very stoked! I can't wait to cook me up some carne asada on Saturday!

Allrighty,
I've gotta head to work now.... Ciao!

Approaching thirty-one!!!

2006-06-06T05:30:00.000-04:00

My thirty-first BiRfDaY is rapidly approaching - YIPPY! That being said, I thought I would take a personality assesment - of which I was totally honest - to document who I've become (at least, up until this point in my life). I was amazed at how accurrate the results were!

I hope you enjoy this!

Me in general:
I tend to have a thoughtful nature; therefore, I need others to express their sincere interest in me and our relationship (whether friends, family, etc.). This offers a secure feeling that I seek. I usually don a cautious and reserved demeanor when meeting new people. For me, relationships must grow naturally and in sincere ways. I do not confide in others readily because of a need for security.

Others who show genuine sincerity and acceptance impress me. I do not like a shallow expression of feelings or thoughtlessness from others. I get along with most people I meet because I don't cause hostility. During times of stress or tension, I tend to withdraw inside myself and appear as somewhat cool and aloof. I prefer a near solitude when thinking through projects, problems or solutions.

I’m often a matter-of-fact person who may be critical of the shortcomings of others who display a more emotional or outgoing side. You may see me as disciplined and self-controlled. I’ve learned the problems of being overly optimistic when planning to depend on others following through.

Communication:
I choose to base relationships on a non-emotional respect for each other's abilities, and base levels of trust on directness and straightforwardness. I’m somewhat quiet and reserved when with others, especially in a large and new group. As others grow louder, I tend to become quieter. I value control of emotions (of which, I’m still learning), and am more reflective than rowdy.

I try to influence others not by showing great emotion, but by appealing to their logical nature. I’ve also learned that those who are more emotional and excitable may sometimes ignore my approach. I’m usually perceptive in social situations because I take little at face value, will listen carefully and accurately, and will watch others carefully.

I equally listen and talk. I place a high premium on the display of my emotions. As a result, "reading" me at times may be difficult. It will take much for me to let my guard down. I may not communicate readily and rapidly with others, but this doesn’t mean I don't support others.

Some people may inaccurately perceive me as not liking people. At times I am misread by others, because of my approach to social situations with logic and objectivity, and judgment of others by their competence.

My strengths:
I tend to be the "Anchor of Reality" in highly emotional situations.
I tend to have very high values. I tend to set and maintain very high standards for myself.
I don't tend to get distracted by superficial issues – but annoyed, nonetheless!
I’ve been told that I’m skilled at finding practical solutions to complicated situations.
I generally take pride in being a strong community member.
I’m good at "troubleshooting" potential problems in a relationship.
I’m good at making certain that even the small details are taken care of.

My Weakness:
Well, these are between me, God, family, my best-friend, and a small group of close-knit friends.

My needs:
To feel important, but not be the leader. Tried, established ways of doing things. Detailed information about major decisions with complete instructions. Better planning for change in the future. Clear responsibility and clear lines of who makes decisions. Status quo. Identification within my social arena. To feel safe and secure in social situations. Quality relationships. Sincerity offered from others. Reassurance.

Additional information:
I am most passionate about furthering my relationship with Christ.
Three things for which I am most thankful are: salvation, family, friends-in-Christ.
My best friend describes me as caring, perceptive, loyal, and thoughtful.
Three of my “best-life-skills” are:
-Volunteering my time to causes I care about
-Being a good friend and companion
-Entertaining in my home - LOL!

1.5 month's later...

2006-05-18T09:00:00.000-04:00

I'm still kicking... just haven't felt the urge to write lately. Man! It's amazing at how much everyone else writes in six weeks... I feel like it's been eternity since I've hit this blog-scene.

Perhaps my creativity will soon return... but know that I'm well and alive here at Misawa.

God bless, my friends!

Amateur works

2006-04-01T21:00:00.000-05:00

For some time, now, I've been struggling with the concepts of love (spiritual, emtotional, and physical), companionship, my longing and rejection of it all, and God's handy work through it all. For whatever reason, today, it has manifested in these simple, silly, and sincere writings. I'm not, by any means a writer... these are just a by-product of the floodgates of my mind. I hope you find them thought provoking, or, in the least, somewhat enjoyable.

True love
I survey the room and love abounds
The slightest of smiles and the most gracious glances returned
The subtle laying of hands; affection and a tender touch
I’m thirty, and I’ve never experienced such.

The life I chose – a prayer.
The life I chose, so very sweet
Yet in my mind it’s incomplete

I’ve traveled the world, seen Tokyo, London, Paris, and Rome
I’ve been blessed with riches and a great home

Enjoyed the company of many great friends
Found Jesus and oft rest in his hands

Yet deep within, the turmoil begins
I have no love, no heart, just sins

Jealous I am of the love that’s yours
For it was I, not God, that chose the whores

Each ripped my soul, a dark blot
Till the years past, my heart was shot

My mind aware of what I’ve lost
My soul does care for the great cost

Jesus help me now, I am a farce
Restore me, heal me, I’m on my arse

Let me not stay here, for love resounds
For in your name, grace abounds!

This Rock.
Curious you glanced
You try and pry
Sharpened, you lanced
The piercing attempt, awry

Hardened my heart may be
Made of stone like granite
And yet you still love me
And always, you’ve meant it

Reconciled by your Son
Jesus calls us to your home
Through his blood we’ve won
Mercy for all, and not just some

One day soon, my God
Before the time is too late
My heart will be soft as sod
Then, only then, will we relate

This rock is yours, my heart – break it now, before I depart

Road Trip... (unexpected)

2006-04-01T01:01:00.000-05:00

Today was supposed to be another great day up in the mountains, shredding the gnar (boarding)... unfortunately, the boarding part didn't happen! I can't say, however, that today was a total bummer.

Here's what happened... You see, there is one major thoroughfare between the mountains on which I like to ride the stick. During the winters, however, the south side of route 103 is closed due to the immense amount of snow that falls. Today, April 1st, was the first day that the south entry was to open - maybe I should have titled this blog April Fools! However(!) (hey... i've now used "however" three times in a row... hmmm?) ten minutes before my arrival at the lodge there was an accident of sorts... I'm not sure if the Japanesse plowman was trying tell me there was an accident that involved vehicles, or if the accident was that the walls of the road collapsed - who knows! I was stuck on the road for over an hour before they made us all turn around and head back toward the city of Towada.

At that point, I had a few options: 1 turn around and drive around the mountain to hit the slopes, which would've had added an additional three hours to my road trip - I WASN'T THAT DESPARATE, surprisingly; 2 head south to the next nearest slope, yet another three hour drive - I WASN'T THAT DESPARATE either; 3 drive through Orisae Gorge and hit up Lake Towada - NOW, THAT WAS APPEALING. The pics below tell my story!

Here's a pic of my Toyota - on my way to Hakkoda Mtn.

Another view

The mad traffic begins - and around the next two bends, I'll have to stop

At this point in the game, I'm wondering, "what's going on???"

"Is that what I think it is?"

"OMG! Yup! It's a big bus!!!"

Heading soutward towards Lake Towada

Lake Towada

Lake Towada

GROSS FACTOR (below)

MMMmm Gatorade!!!

When I go boarding, I have to tank up on my fluids. I'm always amazed with HOW MUCH FLUID my bladder holds!

Soldiers

2006-03-15T16:30:00.000-05:00

2 Corinthians 10:4-5 4
“The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”

“The objective of our warfare is to change how people (us included) think – taking every thought they have and making it no longer captive to a damning ideology, but captive to the obedience of Christ. To do so, the proper weapon is necessary. To assault and throw down the fortresses of false religion, opinions, beliefs, and philosophies, only one weapon will suffice: the Truth. Only one thing exposes and corrects lies – the Truth. Thus, the only offensive weapon in the Christian soldier’s armor is the “the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God” (Ephesians 6:17).

“The key to being successful in spiritual warfare is becoming proficient at wielding the sword of the Word of God against the lies people believe. It is impossible to fight error without knowing the truth. Just as soldiers train constantly in the use of their weapons, so also must Christian soldiers constantly study the Scriptures. Only the power of God’s truth can smash the lies of satanic false systems.” John MacArthur.

Celebrating Tens Years

2006-03-06T05:30:00.000-05:00

Ten years ago, today (6 March 1996), I enlisted with United States Air Force! I can't believe how fast the time has past and I look forward to (at a minimum) ten more years of service. I am proud of my service and I am grateful to my Lord, God, through Jesus Christ that I am where I am - without him in my life I am nothing!

Ten years ago, after graduating boot Camp

This was while I was stationed at Mt Home AFB, Idaho, 1998

Me, now, 6 March 2006, living in Misawa, Japan!

Check it OUT!

2006-03-01T08:00:00.000-05:00

Updated my Myspace website - new pics new things about me!
(link in my endorsments)

World of a difference

2006-02-26T08:30:00.000-05:00

It's amazing how when you find yourself in spiritual need 1) Those closest to you (spiritually) are the most distant; 2) and, frighteningly, how close the world draws near.

Tid-bits...

2006-02-26T05:00:00.000-05:00

Cool news... this past Thursday the Doc said the healing in my shoulder was great and that I no longer needed to particpate in Physical Therapy!! Awesomeness!!!

Tomorrow... I have no work!!! Yup- Comp day!!!

Mid 90's Flashback

2006-02-24T22:30:00.000-05:00

"The greatest single cause of atheism in the world is Christians, who acknowledge Jesus with their lips and walk out the door and deny him by their lifestyle - That's what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable." -Unknown.

WHAT IF I STUMBLE - DC Talk
Is this one for the people?
Is this one for the Lord?
Or do I simply serenade for the things I must afford
You can jumble them together, my conflict still remains
For holiness is calling, in the midst of courting fame

Cause I see the trust in their eyes
Though the sky is falling
They need Your love in their lives
Compromise is calling

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all?
Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all
What if I stumble, what if I fall...

Father please forgive me for I cannot compose
The fear that lives or the rate at which it grows
If struggle has a purpose on the narrow road you've carved
Why do I dread my trespasses will leave a deadly scar?

Do they see the fear in my eyes?
Are they so revealing?
This time I cannot disguise
All the doubt I'm feeling

Everyone's got crawl when you know that
You're up against a wall, it's about to fall...

I hear You whispering my name You say
My love for you will never change - never change!

What if I stumble?
What if I stumble?
What if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all!
What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You are my comfort and my God!

Is this one for the people? Is this one for the Lord?

Friends and Networking

2006-02-24T22:15:00.000-05:00

Check out my Myspace account: CLICK_HERE

Put In Me

2006-02-22T07:30:00.000-05:00

Messing around with my guitar tonight and I came across one of my favorite songs:

Put in Me
By Ben and Robin Pasley

Oh, Mercy, fall on me, like a warm blanket... on my cold, cold heart
Clean me with Your blodd that turns me white... on the inside
I'm on my knees again 'Cause I'm breaking Your heart

I know all my broken places like the back of my hand... that slapped Your face again
Wash me with Your love and hold me tight like a baby
Until I have no memory of ever breaking Your heart

Put in me... what I cannot buy with gold;
Put in me, oh God, come restore my broken soul
Put in me... what I cannot give myself;
Put in me... a clean heart

And the joy when you restore me I will stand and walk again
I will run into this world and I will call them to come in
But I will not point my finger or grow that wicked skin
That cannot remember what I will not forget:
How I broke you...
or How I'm broken...

Physical Therapy

2006-02-15T05:00:00.000-05:00

This afternoon, I had my first physical therapy appointment. The Doc was able to confirm what I have already discovered about my shoulder (limited reach and strength). In addition to that, she ran me through a series of motion tests and made a diagnosis that I was not to happy to hear, but, nonetheless, humbled. Though it has only been a week and a few days since the day of my injury, she is rather concerned with just how limited my motion is. Her prognosis is that my injury is more acute than originally believed. Now, don't react the same way I did (which was only a slight over-reaction), but at this time it's simply too early to determine how acute the injury was.

For the time being, I have been scheduled for a series of physical therapy sessions over the next few weeks and I will be re-evaluated on the 6th of March. For clarification she had asked me to describe to her the way I had injured myself and she was fascinated, but was quick to say, "I don't think you will be snowboarding for the remainder of this season."

"WHAT????"

We'll see about that! J/P. Seriously, though, the Doc has recommended a couple of motion exercises for me to try out while I'm here at home and has stressed the importance of remaining true to my original physical activity restrictions. She's only added one more restriction and that is to not perform any running as it will only aggravate my shoulder and possible damage the all ready stretched tendons and damaged anterior portions of my socket. Hmmph.

All I can think about is, man, Immona-get-fat!!!
:)

Be angry not.

2006-02-14T04:30:00.000-05:00

Lately, I’ve been putting forth a lot of effort in maintaining a focus on the positive things in my life – and let me tell you, it can be a chore at times, especially, since we have societal tendencies to emphasize “what is wrong.” Believe you, me, it’s not always easy!

Today, I just want to recognize that God truly facilitated my reaction to a conversation I had with an individual. I was most irritated to hear the words come out of this person’s mouth and wanted nothing more than to shout out in rage. But I do thank God for the work he has done in my heart. Recently, I found that I'm being tested, quite frequently, in my patience and my ability to control my temper – and, quite honestly, I haven’t faired too well, but I'm extremely grateful for such testing. Today, had it not been for the Lord working in me, I would not have been able to have completed an ounce of constructive effort. I do not know what will come of our conversation, and I am curious, but I’m just thankful for the restraint I was afforded.

Peace!!!
“In your anger do not sin. When you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent. Selah.”
Psalm 4:4

"Whatever happens, conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the Gospel of Christ." Phil. 1:27

AND... My daily morning prayer:
"Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; the sinful mind is hostle to God. It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so. Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God.
You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ." Romans 8:5-9

Eight years later…

2006-02-09T07:00:00.000-05:00

It was in 1998 when I made my first attempt at my favorite past time… snowboarding. At that time, I was stationed at Mountain Home AFB, Idaho. It was in the first week of January that we (the 726th Air Control Squadron) were awaiting deployment orders to Kuwait. In awaiting our departure we took a quick day trip to Soldier Mountain, Ski Resort.

It was a horrible first experience! No one had ever explained to me the difference between a regular and goofy stance – and so I had my board setup exactly like my, then buddy, 2-live’s. After four hours of torture on sheer ice, the question was asked of me,

2-Live: “Are you sure you’re goofy foot?”

me: “What the **** is goofy foot?!!”

(I was quite a foul-mouthed, alcoholic, back in the day)

After a short boarding lesson (at the end of the day) I was well on my way to being a Novice!

After eight years, I should be much better than I actually am – but nonetheless, boarding is my sport of choice! And, after eight years, I’ve finally experienced my first serious injury. Last Saturday, February 4th, I fell on a rather simple jump and slammed my shoulder into the ground! Yup… I dislocated my shoulder. It sucked, and still sucks. Don’t ever take for granted the use of your non-dominate arm… but well on my way to recovery.

So, I’m on medical profile until the 6th of March… Hey, at least I’ll catch the last few weeks of boarding here in Northern Japan. FYI… March 6th will mark my ten-year anniversary in the US Air Force (HOLY-CANOLY, Batman!!!)

I'm taking a stand

2006-02-01T06:45:00.000-05:00

There are times when I spend entirely too much time on the internet and I need to discipline myself. I need to wean myself from the mindless control I too often relinquish to senseless “surfing.”

And so, I’ve told myself, “Self, you don’t have to be on the internet.”
And self said, “You know… you’re right.”

I’ve done well, I might say - it’s evident in my lack of posts.

To note: My last entry was mostly a blow to selfishness – a bruise to the ego. I admit that I have an overt tendency to want to captivate attention from others. But, I’ll tell you what: I did received a tender hug from Sylvia and I am grateful!

Awkward

2006-01-27T08:00:00.000-05:00

There’s conversation in front of me…
Singing to the right…
Music to the left…
…and the sudden realization: I don’t quite fit, anymore.

So be it!

2006-01-26T04:50:00.000-05:00

Sooooo... how do you like my new

blog-skin?

Cool, huh?!! And, it's fully fucntional, too!

A series of unfortunate events…

2006-01-24T06:45:00.000-05:00

A series of unfortunate events… CONQUERED!!!!

Many of you are unaware of some struggles that I have been plowing through over the past few months. To most, it would’ve only seemed to have manifested in anger, sleeplessness, or some other superficial exhibition. None-the-less, it’s been pretty difficult for me on a spiritual level. Recently, I have had a great break through with the exhortation and admonishment received from my mother *thanks, Mom*

None-the-less, I’m still experiencing the growth out of that drudge – Today is a prime example. Know this: it ends with my praises lifted to God, for once again he has proven faithful even when I was not.

I’ve been sick for nearly a week, now. It started with a simple cold last week, and has become a full blown cough with flu like symptoms (aching joints & muscles, and loss of appetite and dehydration). Last night, if you read my blog, I woke from my sleep at an uncomfortable time of around 1:30am. I milled around for maybe an hour before I had fallen asleep again.

I ended up waking at 5:30am went to soak in the tub for short while and, then, shaved so that I could scuttle on to the gym for Tuesday morning PT. Unfortunately, I did not make it to PT as I found my truck battery dead for the second time this week. Against my wishes, I reluctantly called Matt to come and give me a jump – thankfully, he was gracious enough to venture out into the cold and help me out. Please understand that up until this morning, I was having difficulty in hanging out with my best bud Matt – there were issues that had went unspoken and they were (honestly speaking) really pissing me off. This morning, Matt picked up on it and as a result, he called me out on it and I spoke my grievances. It was the most difficult thing I’ve had to do in a long time. Out of respect for the privacy of the matter, I will not write of these grievances. It was hard for both, but necessary.

I tell you the truth, only a God ordained friendship would endure hardship against all else. I am grateful (Matt) that the response was handled rather well, with understanding, conviction, forgiveness and grace. – keep in mind that, up until that point, I had yet to go to work. 6:45am was not a time that I had desired to have such a conversation.

As previously arranged I had scheduled the Toyota for an oil change this morning and so I had them check out the battery and alternator – surprisingly, they tested without error. Hmm? I guess diesel and cold weather don’t bode well together.

Anyhow, after lunch I had picked up the Toyota and went to withdraw Yen to pay a final notice water bill (that I never, before, received) threatening to shut my water off. Crazy enough, the ATM displayed a “denial of service” warning – ODD? I went to the bank and spoke with a customer rep and explained my situation – apparently, for some unknown reason, my ATM card was cancelled. A minor detail since the local bank here is not my primary bank service, so we ordered an additional card that will, hopefully, arrive within three weeks. So the next logical solution was to go to the teller and withdraw money to purchase Yen inside the bank. “Uhm? Mr. Alvarez, your account is showing as closed.” “WHAT?” So come to find out that the reason my card was cancelled was because my account had been closed. We investigated obvious reason why it would have been closed, but none applied to me. WEIRD!!!!! Anyway… they’re looking into my account situation, working to restore it. I was able to purchase my Yen and get the water bill paid – YEAH! I still have running water!!

Unlike Lemony Snicket’s series of unfortunate events, I find joy at the end of my day.
Yes… I feel absolutely horrible in health.
Yes… I faced an unwarranted threat to shut my water.
Yes… I faced the possibility of replacing a battery, alternator, or both.
Yes… I had the most uncomfortable confrontation with a friend.

But, do you know what? God made provisions this day. Despite aches and pains of sickness there is a peace in my heart… I still have my water service… I have a vehicle in good working condition… and, gratefully, I still have a God ordained friendship.

God continues to work in my life. Thanks to those whom I’ve confided (Matt, Pat, Drea, Sarah, Mom and Sis - to name a few) and have asked for joint prayer. The Lord bless you twice as much. BUT, my greatest praise is to God for providing me with patience, peace of heart and mind, and forgiveness through it all!

This was shared with me tonight:
“Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” ~Romans 12:2
(ps. Sorry for the incoherency of this blog... I have written out of excitement and little proofing)

Arghh!

2006-01-23T11:28:00.000-05:00

It's almost 1:30 in the morning and I'm WIDE AWAKE!!!! ARGHHH!!!! I wasn't supposed to wake up until 5am... ARGHHH!!!!

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

2006-01-23T02:00:00.000-05:00

Words of instruction:
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UNDER CONSTUCTION

2006-01-22T22:30:00.000-05:00

I'll be messing around with my webpage template... bare with me, please.

Well, I'm on a comp. day today and, under normal circumstances, I would be fine - but I'm not. Yeah... everyone around here has come down with a cold of sorts and today is absolutley a bad day - health-wise - for me. I was okay throughout most of the weekend having only a cough, but, this morning, I feel bad. I have an ongoing head throb, sinus congestion and pressure, and oodles of bronchial congestion. I was hoping to have taken a small trip to Okunakayama, today, for a half-day of boarding, but there's no way in God's green earth will I be leaving my house.

So far, I've vegged watching the boob-tube and nowI'm messing around with this silly blog. The only other thing I'm contemplating is having to go to the bank and pay a couple of bills.

Which do you preffer? Nyquil or Robitussin-CF?
Nyquil makes me groggy in the mornings and dayquil makes my sinus pressure worse. I've decided that I like robitussin-cf better because, not only does it have cough suppressant, and a nasal decongestant, but it also has expectorant to break up the the bronchial mucus... mmm... lovely. *cough... cough*

OCD back from Vacation

2006-01-18T06:30:00.000-05:00

Just wanted to let everyone know that my friend OCD - obsessive compulsive disorder - is back from his vacation... and he's not happy. Apparently, since OCD took a break shortly after Christmas, Mikey took advantage and never once cleaned his house. Well, now that OCD is back (and well, since Mikey is expecting company this weekend) OCD is pretty disgusted and ready to kick some tail.

...house is somewhat clean. Don't worry friends, OCD will have the house spic-n-span!!!

Welcome Home Friends!

2006-01-16T07:45:00.000-05:00

After a near month of horrible travel and great vacation time back in the States, my friends have come home!

Patrick, Drea and Ellie

(Insert caption here... BUT, REALLY? IS ONE NEEDED?)

Love ya, Drea (don't hate)!

Hachimantai Forest

2006-01-07T08:45:00.000-05:00

Went boarding.

Had fun.

Boarding becoming routine?

Prayer: "Lord, let me

not get bored of boarding. AMEN!"

Mt. Iwate as seen from Hachimantai summit

Bored me atop Hachimantai summit

Paddy's Irish Pub

2006-01-06T09:55:00.000-05:00

Tonight, I met up with Kerry, Caleb, Matt, and Stephen to hang out at Paddy's. It was a good time reminiscing and making new memories.

Pics in Review

2006-01-04T09:00:00.000-05:00

I was looking over the tons of pics that I have already taken this winter season; I have to admitt, I've come across some really nice photos - BUT, just as many bad ones. The big disappointments have been the few pics I have from my weekend snowboarding trips. I would like to be able to proudly show a pic of me hitting some jumps or landing a front/back flip - the reality, however, is that I'm more likely to have someone take a pic of my slamming my arms into the ground or eatin' another pie of powder. LOL. Honestly, I find that: 1, once I hit the slopes, pics are not a priority; 2, until recently, I didn't have a small portable camera and there's no way I'm gonna lug my large camera out on the slopes (though, i've done it before); 3, lastly, I find I never have any pics of me- I'm always taking them of others. One day. Yes. One day.

Anyhow. These two pics grabbed my attention the most:

Click for larger view

The ornament was a gift from Dawn, my pastor's wife, from Alaska. Really, I just like the way the lighting from the tree lights and that of the sun ray's softly enhance the crystal cut and frosted features.

The second photos is from my side yard - this, simply, will always remind me of my winters here in Japan. I think that this pic says much about this place.

Happy New Years!

2005-12-31T13:14:00.000-05:00

I actually did not stay awake for this post... but since I am up,

HAPPY

NEW

YEAR!!!

Visit from the World Traveler

2005-12-28T09:45:00.000-05:00

Today, I had the pleasure of enjoying the company of a good friend who left Misawa back in August; Kerry! She actually arrived in Misawa a few days ago, but because of circumstance it only worked out to where we could visit with one another today. It was just like old times....

Kerry preparing her famous scones

Caleb and Kerry came over around ten-ish and Kerry made us some scones! She made my personal favorite, Earl Grey scones, and, also, chocolate chip - most delicious!

Early Grey & Chocolate Chip scones

Afterwards, it really was like old times; Caleb and Kerry started to jam out on guitars - but that was only short lived until Matt came along and it was time to head out to Hachinohe and eat sushi at the fish market. After our meal, we went to Lapia Mall, hung out, shopped, played arcade games, and ate Baskin Robins. We ended our day with dinner at Subahachi's - since Ohashi's was packed - and watch some good old "Friends." Good times. Good times.

Caleb & Kerry

Sushi-go-round

Matt, Me, Caleb, and Kerry

Kabocha (pumpkin) Ice Cream

Scene from fish market cafe

Caleb and Matt dueling on the Taiko drums

Kerry posing at Fantasy Dome (Lapia Mall)

Reflecting my devotional

2005-12-27T09:59:00.000-05:00

For over two months, I been reading a chapter a day in a dedicated book [of the bible] with a couple of friends. In addition to my own personal studies, I've enjoyed the added benefit of being accountable to another in offering discipleship and being discipled through this reading experience. Currently, I just read through chapter 14 of Genesis and was in awe of Abram's character (Abram - who later would be renamed Abraham).

For those unfamliar with Abram's story, here's a quick summary of a specific account in his lifetime: the rescue of his nephew, Lot.
Short, short story - Lot was taken captive by the King of Sodom. Abram was quick to act and conquered King Kedorlaomer's army, recovered lost goods, and rescued Lot and other captives. Sodom's King speaks to Abram saying, "Give back my people who were captured; but you may keep for yourself all the goods you have recovered." Abram replied, " I have solemly promised the Lord, God Most High, Creator of heaven and earth, that I will not take so much as a single thread or sandal thong from you. Otherwise you might say, 'I am the one who made Abram rich!' All I'll accept is what these young men of mine have already eaten."

Just prior to this conversation, Abram gave a tenth of the goods he recovered to Melchizedek, the high priest. Even in some pagan religions, it was traditional to give a tenth of one's earnings to the gods. Abram followed accepted tradition; however, he refused to take any of the recovered goods from the king of Sodom. Even though this huge amount would significantly increase what he could have given to God, he chose to reject it for more important reasons - he didn't want the ungodly king of Sodom to say, "I have made Abram rich." Instead, Abram wanted him to say, "God has made Abram rich." In this case, accepting the gifts would have focused everyone's attention on Abram or the king of Sodom rather than on God, the giver of victory. When people look at us, they need to see what God has accomplished in our lives.

Christmas Quiz (answers)

2005-12-27T01:47:00.000-05:00

Okay, okay. I admitt, the test sounded about corny; however, I hope you understand where I was going with it all. I do have another test that's not so cheesy and seems to be slighty more of a challenge. If you're interested, shoot me an email and I will forward it to you.

So, how did you fare? Here are the answers to Sunday's quiz:

1. The name of the mother of Jesus was:
1. Mary Matthew 1:18 “18 This is how the birth of Jesus Christ came about: His mother Mary was pledged to be married to Joseph, but before they came together, she was found to be with child through the Holy Spirit.”

2. Jesus was born in what town?
2. Bethlehem Matthew 2:1 “After Jesus was born in Bethlehem in Judea, . . .”

3A. Joseph was a:
Carpenter Matthew 13:55 “Isn't this the carpenter's son? Isn't his mother's name Mary, . . .”

3B. When Joseph found Mary was pregnant, what happened:
Joseph want to break the engagement. Matthew 1:19 and Luke 1:39 and 56 Joseph wants to “put her away” secretly and Mary left town to see her cousin, Elizabeth.

4. Why didn’t Joseph and Mary stay at the inn?
There was no room. Luke 2:7 " . . . because there was no room for them in the inn."

5. How did Joseph and Mary get to Bethlehem?
5. We don’t know. The Bible doesn't say. Some suppose that she rode something since she was so far along in her pregnancy.

6. After being born, Jesus was placed in a:
6. Manger. Luke 2:7 "And she brought forth her firstborn son, and wrapped him in swaddling clothes, and laid him in a manger; because there was no room for them in the inn."

7. A manger is a:
7. Feeding Trough. It comes from a Greek word that means "to eat".

8. Which animals does the Bible say were housed in the stable?
8. The Bible doesn't say.

9. From what area were the three kings that visited Jesus?
9. None of the above. The Bible only talks about the wise (magi) coming to see Jesus. The Bible never describes them as kings. It‘s just the song that says “We three kings of orient are“ Matthew 2:1 “Now when Jesus was born in Bethlehem of Judaea in the days of Herod the king, behold, there came wise men from the east to Jerusalem,”

10. What sign were the shepherds told to look for by the angel?
10. None of the Above Luke 2:12 "And this shall be a sign unto you; Ye shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger."

11. With what words did the heavenly host of angels praise God?
11. Glory to God... Luke 2:14 "Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men." Most of these other songs were written long after Christ died.

12. What is frankincense?
12. A valuable incense made from the sap of a tree

13. What is myrrh?
13. A valuable spice sometimes used in burials. John 19:39-40 "And there came also Nicodemus, which at the first came to Jesus by night, and brought a mixture of myrrh and aloes, about an hundred pound weight 40 Then took they the body of Jesus, and wound it in linen clothes with the spices, as the manner of the Jews is to bury"

14. How many wise men came to see Jesus?
14. No one knows, but more than one. Some SUPPOSE that there were three since there were three gifts, but that is just a guess. Matthew 2:1 "Now when Jesus was born in Bethlehem of Judea in the days of Herod the king, behold, there came wise men from the east to Jerusalem,"

15A. What does "wise men" most likely refer to?
15A. Star Gazers. See most any commentary. Star gazers could often navigate, predict the times for best planting, knew math, astronomy and calendar systems. They were very important in agricultural societies.

15B. The “star in the east” that the wise men followed…
15B. The “star in the east” that the wise men followed… Matthew 2:9 Most people miss this question. The star did not stay stationary over the manger of over the house. This verse makes it clear that the star moved “in front” of the Magi and guided them till it “stood over where the you child was.”

16A. The wise men met Jesus in a:
16. House. Matthew 2:11 "And when they were come into the house, they saw the young child with Mary his mother, and fell down, and worshipped him: and when they had opened their treasures, they presented unto him gifts; gold, and frankincense, and myrrh."

16B. The wise men stopped in Jerusalem…:
16B. The wise men stopped in Jerusalem Matthew 2:2 and asked “Where is the one who has been born king of the Jews?”

17. Who told Joseph and Mary to go to Bethlehem?
17. Caesar Augustus. Luke 2:1, 4 "And it came to pass in those days, that there went out a decree from Caesar Augustus, that all the world should be taxed. 2 (And this taxing was first made when Cyrenius was governor of Syria.) 3 And all went to be taxed, every one into his own city. 4 And Joseph also went up from Galilee, out of the city of Nazareth, into Judaea, unto the city of David, which is called Bethlehem; (because he was of the house and lineage of David:)"

18. The child Jesus went to Egypt:
18. Joseph was told in a dream to do it. Matthew 2:13 "And when they were departed, behold, the angel of the Lord appeareth to Joseph in a dream, saying, Arise, and take the young child and his mother, and flee into Egypt, and be thou there until I bring thee word: for Herod will seek the young child to destroy him."

19. According to the Bible, the little drummer boy met Jesus:
19. None of the above. The story of a drummer boy meeting Jesus is not in the Bible.

20. In which books do we find the story of Jesus’ birth:
20. Matthew and Luke only. Mark and John to not talk about the birth of Jesus.

21. December 25th has been celebrated as Christmas since the Bible was written.
21. False. Although the Bible talks about the birth of Jesus, it never uses the word “Christmas”. As best as we know, the earliest Christians didn't even celebrate Christmas. Later, several different dates were observed by Christians but it wasn’t until about the 4th century that December 25th became the common day of celebration. The fact is that no one really knows when Jesus was born.

Snow Boarding adventure

2005-12-26T09:45:00.000-05:00

So today, Matt, David, and I went snow boarding at Okunakayama (Oki, for short). To begin, just know that when I don't get much sleep I'm not a pleasant person to be with - thankfully Matt and David did well to look past that and make the best of things (sorry guys). Well, that said, I didn't do well to plan out the day, either.

The night before I had intended to wash some of my snow gear from Friday's boarding adventure - didn't happen. Next, normally I try to fill up the truck the night before I go out to the mountains - didn't happen. No problem, right? I can fill up in the morning, especially since the base gas station now has 24/7 pumping with it's point-of-sale terminals activated - didn't happen. Yep. all point-of-sales were off-line! So we had to wait until the gas station opened at 9am. So I decided to make the best of the situation and motioned for us to head over to the "Moke" for some breakfast. Mmmm - it hit the spot. Finally, around 930am we hit the gas station up and headed out to Oki. normally, via toll road, I can make it in about 1hr15min - this time 2 hours! The roads were a little dangerous and the snow fall was pretty intense.

(Tohoku Express, just prior to Ichinohe)

Of course, we really didn't loose time until we hit Ichinohe which is about 15 minutes north of Oki - took nearly 50 minutes this time.

(foreground, David; Matt in back with hands up)

When we finally hit the slopes it was about 12pm. We ended up boarding until about 7pm. We came home and ate some grub - I made some pork chops, cheese broccolli, and stuffing. We ended the night just messing around. It was a good way to end a four day weekend.

(Matt and Me atop Oki Summit)

Merry Christmas! (Post two)

2005-12-25T09:59:00.000-05:00

I spent most of Christmas day preparing part of the Christmas meal for the dinner held at the Hospitality House. Though I only prepared about 14Lbs of pot roast, there was tons of food for dinner. It was a little bit of everything: pot roast, turkey, sweet potatoes with apples, cheesey grits, corn, almond green peppers, bicuits, and desserts - all kinds!

Time to hit the sack - we're snow boarding tomorow!

Merry Christmas! (Post One)

2005-12-24T16:00:00.000-05:00

When I was stationed in Germany, I had the privillege of serving as co-youth pastor - along side John P - at Calvary Chapel Kaiserslautern (CCK-Town). At Christmas we offered a challenge to the kids to see if what they knew about the Christmas story was influenced by the bible or cultural (commercial) influence. Are you up to the Challange?

I'll post the answers in a couple of days - BUT, if you're really up to the challange, I encourage you to reconcile your answer with your bibles ;0)

How much do you really know about Christmas? Our culture has influenced our understanding of the story of the birth of Jesus. A lot of misconceptions have arisen due to this. The more difficult questions help clarify the difference between the original Bible story and modern ideas.

CHRISTMAS QUIZ
Questions start out easy and then get hard.

1. The name of the mother of Jesus was:

Martha
Mary
Eve
Deborah

2. Jesus was born in what town?

Jerusalem
Nazareth
Bethlehem
New York

3A. Joseph was a:

Carpenter
Doctor
Engineer
Fisherman

3B. When Joseph found Mary was pregnant, what happened:

They got married
Joseph wanted to break the engagement
Mary left town for three months
It doesn’t matter

4. Why didn’t Joseph and Mary stay at the inn?

It was too expensive
There was no inn
There was no room
None of the above

5. How did Joseph and Mary get to Bethlehem?

Colt
Mary rode a donkey and Joseph walked
wagon
Who knows?

6. After being born, Jesus was placed in a:

Basket
Manger
Pile of hay
On the back of a donkey

7. A manger is a:

stable
feeding trough
wooden table
barn

8. Which animals does the Bible say were housed in the stable?

cows, donkeys, sheep
lions, tigers and bears
goats, sheep and cows
The Bible doesn’t say.

9. From what area were the three kings that visited Jesus?

the west
the east
the orient
none of the above

10. What sign were the shepherds told to look for by the angel?

a lion and a sheep together in peace
a tree with a star on top
a star over Bethlehem
none of the above

11. With what words did the heavenly host of angels praise God?

"Joy to the World, the Lord is Come"
"Glory, Glory, Hallelujah”
“King of Kings and Lord of Lords”
"Glory to God in the highest,"

12. What is frankincense?

a form of gold
an incense from a tree
a jewel
none of the above.

13. What is myrrh?

a musical instrument
a spice used for burial
a valuable wine
none of the above

14. How many wise men came to see Jesus?

One
Two
Three
The Bible doesn’t say

15A. What does "wise men" most likely refer to?

lawyers
star gazers.
priests
doctors

15B. The “star in the east” that the wise men followed…

Stayed in the same place their entire journey
Disappeared and reappeared
Moved ahead of them and stopped over the place where Jesus was0
Was just a mirage

16A. The wise men met Jesus in a:

manger.
castle.
stable.
house.

16B. The wise men stopped in Jerusalem…:

To inform Herod about Jesus
To find out where Jesus was
To ask about the star
To buy presents

17. Who told Joseph and Mary to go to Bethlehem?

an angel
Caesar Augustus.
Herod
No one told them to go.

18. The child Jesus went to Egypt:

to meet pharaoh
because Joseph was told in a dream to take him
Joseph did not take Jesus to Egypt
none of the above

19. According to the Bible, the little drummer boy met Jesus:

when Jesus was in the manger
at a house
When Jesus was about two years old
none of the above

20. In which books do we find the story of Jesus’ birth

Matthew
Mark
Luke
John

21. December 25th has been celebrated as Christmas since the Bible was written.

True
False

22. DISCUSSION QUESTION: So, really, how does our culture influence what we understand of the stories of the Bible?

You can read what the Bible says about the birth of Jesus in Matthew 1:18-2:23 and Luke 1:26-2:20. Now go back and read these verses again like you are hearing this wonderful story for the first time.

Christmas Eve

2005-12-24T06:00:00.000-05:00

It's been an interesting year. Hmm. Enough about that, though...

So tonight, I met up with my friends, Dan and the Utechs, for the Christmas Eve service; it's was nice. It was a first for me [visiting Dan's Church] and I was quite surprised at how many people I knew from other various places/events (work, HH, etc.).

After the service I dropped by at another friend's house, Mike W., as he was having people over for a small get-together. I didn't stay long, but long enough to have Mike poke fun at me for FINALLY making an appearance at his house. He tried to joke about wanting to take a pic of me actually being there so that others would believe him - WELL, HA! I took my camera! I really was there and here's the proof:

One last note: Jodi wrote a nice blog entry about the cultural differences in celebration of Christmas, contrasting Western and Japanese styles; check it out: bakagaijiin

The Result:

2005-12-19T09:00:00.000-05:00

I've closed the Tatami room doors; I've left the couch in it's new location; and I've decorated the tree.

I did it on impulse and have realized: it's not as fun when you don't have others to help out, drink some nog, and slap each other silly.

Oh well. Lesson learned.
Merry Christmas :-)

PS. For all you critics (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!): Yes, I'll be getting a tree skirt.

Does this work? Maybe.

2005-12-15T05:50:00.000-05:00

I decided to get an artificial tree for Christmas... It's always interesting how some people totaly rearrange a home to accomodate something silly like a tree.

Tamale Feast 2005

2005-12-11T08:30:00.000-05:00

As has become my tradition – one that I’ve continued from my own family’s tradition – is the making of tamales at Christmas. This is something that I attempt to prepare annually, inviting close friends to share in the experience. Now, if you’ve ever made tamales, you know that it’s not an easy accomplishment. They’re not something that on a whim you would say, “I think I’ll make tamales for dinner tonight.” No. That would be foolish. Instead it’s a process that involves many hours and is extremely useful when there are additional hands involved. And for me, it has to be as authentic as possible, preparing everything from scratch. Everything from making the red chile sauce, soaking the corn husks, preparing the masa (Spanish, for dough), to slow cooking the pork roast the night before and shredding it just prior to preparation, are included in the process. This is an all day event where we start in the morning, steam cook the tamales for a few hours – all the while enjoying each others company – and ending the entire event with a hefty and hearty Mexican meal with fresh beans, Mexican rice, fresh steamed tamales, and dessert! MMmmm!!!
Though, Christmas is, yet, two weeks away, it was decided to have this day set as our “Tamale Feast” as we will be parting our separate ways prior to Christmas.

Part of the preparation is

mixing the tamale filling.

which constists of shredded

pork and red chile.

Sarah exhibits her skill

and pearly whites, while Drea

hides.

Marti, Drea, and Sarah

enjoying conversation

while preparing the tamales.

Sarah and Marti

chomping on chips and

guac.

Patrick and Ellie

enjoying frijoles (beans).

And, Matt doing what Matts does well - eating!

I hate funk… or, do I?

2005-12-07T06:00:00.000-05:00

Apathy (heretofore, funk) settles in every once in a while and you either allow that funk run its course, or work to eliminate that funk. But, when you really have the funk, do you really work to get rid of the funk?

EVERYONE: a resounding, “NO!!”

Of course, not! You’re in the funk. My question, then, is why doesn’t funk spill into other areas of your life? If funk is absolutely true, then, it indeed should infect every thought, action, and emotion. Surprisingly, however, I found that when I experience the funk, it is only limited to certain aspects of my life.

Snowboarding – AWESOME!
Winter – Great!
Work – Good ( yes, even work is good).
School – Eh?
(A tilt of the head,
a look of funk, a
slight shrug and a
teetering hand)
Other hobbies – Eh?
(A tilt of the head,
a look of funk, a
slight shrug and a
teetering hand)
Exercising – Eh?
(A tilt of the head,
a look of funk, a
slight shrug and a
teetering hand)
Pizza and a cold one – Good.

Fool or not?

2005-12-04T01:30:00.000-05:00

So, I’ve been back in Japan less than 24hrs and have had less than five hours sleep, a half day’s worth of boarding at Appi Koegen, and indulged in a great bowl of pork-miso ramen for lunch – thus, begins my quest to board every weekend until the end of the winter season!

I'm off to church and then I'm out for the night!
What a way to end a three week vacation!